Blah Blah Balls

Hello Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Chasing Pavements by Adele.

Okay, so it's weird. I am twisted all up in pain. Physical pain, so don't go worrying about my mental state. Meh, it's all good though. Some meds will take care of it.

I had to pick my mom up early from work, which I didn't find out until twenty minutes before I had to leave. :( So now I'm sitting in a Starbucks (using WiFi) while she shops until we leave to go to a party. Mmmm, frapp.

Anyways. Sooooo, my life is good. I got Twin to join in on something with me. It is soooo exciting!!!!! Waaaaa!

I'm hopeful. Maybe, just maybe. I'm vague but I'm being vague for good reason.

<3

Soul

Couldn't I be something besides a moth?

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Just Dance by Lady GaGa.

So, I am a moth. He is the flame. I am attracted in a way that cannot be explained. In my mind I know I want to stay away, well not stay away, but I want it to be different. Why is my life so fucked? I don't want to sound like one of those angsty teenagers, because I don't think I am an angsty teenager.

I maintain this perfect distance, then he calls, and we talk, and he is so perfect about it. I think, perhaps this is exactly what I'm looking for and he is perfect for what I need. Then he turns into an asshole. Perhaps he doesn't turn into one though, perhaps he just is one and I don't realize it until I let myself see it.

But I don't want to stop. That's where the moth part of me comes in. I know that he will text me, come up with a beautiful lie of an excuse, and I will let myself believe. I won't stop myself either, because it's beautiful. I would worship it. I won't, but I would.

Not to mention, some of the things that he has said makes my heart melt. Not in the way where I'm about to proclaim my love or anything. He's real though, he's standing in front of me and smiling, perfect diamonds of words falling from lips and into my ears.

I'm sucker.

=/

Soul

Hmmmm, no countdown, but there are the thoughts

Hi Everyone.

I'm currently listening to Candy Shop by 50 Cent.

So, stuff has happened. I know Twin is not an advocate. However, I'm having bunches of fun. I know that more fun will soon be had. Which is what my title is about.

My thoughts have been wandering today. I can almost still feel it.

Blissful.

Weird, I know.

Platinum and Mediterranean seem to be for it. Platinum is very excited for me.

I bought something today. I almost feel weird about it. It makes me feel like a little kid because it'll be a completely new experience. I mean, not completely new, but I've never used one. Neither has he...

I've reverted. Not in the way any of you will think.

I like it.

=)

Soul

Thoughts

Hi Everyone!

I’m currently listening to The Sound of White by Missy Higgins.

River gave me this amazing publication today. It is a literary magazine that has some amazing pieces in it. One piece, actually the very first piece, made my heart stop. Its beauty was overwhelming. I have been reading it throughout my school day, becoming more and more enchanted with each word, with each syllable.

I like to sing. I listen to my IPOD frequently throughout the day at school. I find that I have this overwhelming desire to belt out certain songs sometimes. I think that music is powerful. It speaks to everyone. There is music for every mood, for every person. Sometimes I swear I can feel the music inside of me. I just like it that much.

Where any preconceived ideas were blown away… *me singing*

So, anyhow. I hate it when I come up with something so extremely brilliant and perfect, then fourteen minutes later when I go to write it down, I am completely blank. Oh sure, I have the general idea of what my plan was, of the words I found so perfect only minutes earlier. I can’t seem to string the words together right though. They come out jumbled and wrong. Just plain wrong. It’s quite annoying.

Today feels like a Friday. Which makes me sad, because I wish it was Friday. I got really sad when I realized it was not Friday, but Wednesday. Wednesday is good too though. Wednesday is good too.

:)

Soul

Something I wrote a while back and never posted

Hi everyone!

I’m currently listening to Mannequin by Katy Perry.

I’m so sorry, I haven’t been here in a while. Actually, it’s been quite a while. I have a couple of things to talk about. First, I want to talk about my brilliant friends. I am officially 18 (wooh, legal!). I had Platinum, Twin, Mediterranean, and Manhattan over for a little celebration. I hate to use the word birthday party because that has so many immature connotations in my mind. However, that’s pretty much what it was. Platinum, Twin, Mediterranean, and I went to a store and got a very interesting (and informative) lesson about some *cough cough* items. It was so much fun overall, and I know what I’m getting Twin for Xmas. Hehehehe, she probably thinks I’m kidding… *laughs manically*. The reason that Manhattan didn’t come with us is because she is not 18 yet, so it would have been a no go for her. But she said she would meet us for dinner. So I called her twice and texted her, but I get no answer. I am upset, but I push it aside because it was my night and I wasn’t going to let her ruin it. We went to dinner and had SUCH a great time. It was really fun and I couldn’t have asked for anything better. Well as soon as the bill comes for dinner she texts me and asks if I had gotten any of her texts. I just rolled my eyes, I didn’t, but honestly I don’t think she texted me. I was receiving all my other texts and sending them and THAT one asking if I had gotten her previous ‘texts’ magically got through. Sorry, I don’t believe it. Not to mention she knew the time schedule I was working on, when 5 o’clock rolled around she should have called if I hadn’t texted her. Blah, it’s all such bullshit. She said that she had a problem with stuff and couldn’t leave her house, like I said before though, I wasn’t going to let her ruin my night. So I didn’t. We went back to my house, played a game, opened presents, and had a great time. She ended up showing up but the dynamics of the group were weird with her there. I noticed it. After to talking to my friends separately they all expressed that they were upset with her because she treated me like shit and was very nonchalant about it. She didn’t seem very into the night either. To be honest I think I would have had a better time if she didn’t show up at all. BUT, I had an amazing time because I was with my best friends and that’s what matters. Mediterranean left first, then Manhattan, but Platinum stayed for a long time. It was really great because the dynamics between Platinum and Twin were really great. It was a great couple hours with just the three of us. I know that Twin and Mediterranean both read this so I just wanted you two to know that I love you both to death and know that you guys could have done anything with your night so I am really happy that you chose to spend it with me. I had an amazing time and you are the reason for it. *hugs* I love you both!

=)

Soul

Blushing Gives Everything Away

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Mannequin by Katy Perry.

So, I love Twin. I just want to put it out there. She is a great girl who I thank God everyday for. If it wasn't for her I would have quit my job such a long time ago. Beyond a simple coworker though she is one of my best friends. I look forward to talking to her because I know she truly listens to me and cares about me. We can truly talk about anything too. I have never told anyone about my nonfiction book-reading habits, and since she has similar habits it's all okay. Even if she didn't have similar habits I think it would be okay. I truly believe that anything I tell her wouldn't make her shirk away and stop being my friend.

So that's all...

=)

Soul

MY 100TH POST!!!

Hi Everyone!!!

I’m currently listening to New Favorite by Debra Arlyn and Every Mile a Memory by Dierks Bentley.

1. I’ve seen the Statue of Liberty.
2. Metrodad inspired me to blog.
3. I change my computer background often.
4. I constantly lose my flash drives.
5. If I could be any celebrity for a day it would be Victoria Beckham.
6. I like Britney Spears’ music.
7. I love thinking about my future, it excites me.
8. I hate the Times New Roman font.
9. I haven’t read the twilight series and really don’t plan on it.
10. I’ve never broken a bone.
11. Stone is the first boy who is really athletic that I have ever had a crush on.
12. I like it when my nails are painted but I rarely do it.
13. The Green Mile is my all time favorite movie.
14. When I am shopping with my little cousin I like to pretend he is my son to see people’s reactions.
15. My favorite candy is a tie between Almond Joys and Reese’s peanut butter cups.
16. The best number is 27.
17. Completely yellow socks creep me out.
18. I can’t drink plain coffee.
19. My favorite pair of shoes is my nike flip flops.
20. I honestly don’t think I could survive without my IPOD
21. One of my biggest accomplishments this year has been creating my own grades program.
22. My favorite color is midnight blue
23. I used to love Spongebob and my aunt doesn't understand that I don't anymore, so I still get Spongebob stuff at birthday/Xmas time.
24. I always want to live in the town I live in right now.
25. I am pretty much always cold.
26. I love budgeting.
27. I dislike onions.
28. I also dislike tomatoes.
29. Apparently I say “salsa” weirdly.
30. I have never been to a concert.
31. I don’t like caramel usually.
32. I love my mom’s sloppy joe’s and my grandma’s homemade tacos.
33. In my opinion, I swear too much. Although I do it a lot less than many people. However when I do swear, I do it properly.
34. I drink a lot of water. It’s quite a problem actually.
35. I know in my mind that sleep is just a waste of time because I could be doing so many other useful things but I love sleeping. I usually would rather be sleeping than doing what I’m doing.
36. My senior research paper will be the first research paper I write where I have actually read the book.
37. I am so scared of getting hurt.
38. I have such great creative fun ideas, but I never have the time to do them.
39. I have never been more inspired to teach than when I am around River.
40. I love doing PowerPoint presentations.
41. I love blankets. I am constantly using them. I even have one in my car…
42. I am always questioning myself and every little move I make.
43. I have such a great desire to teach it sometimes surprises me.
44. I am not counting down the days until I end high school but I am counting down the days until I never have to do physical education again.
45. I am so excited for my first home.
46. The only things I spend money on are gas and food.
47. I still miss my old personal trainer.
48. The song “Candy Shop” by 50 Cent reminds me of Flash.
49.I like wearing dresses, but I don't have too many of them. :(
50. I’m quite driven when it comes to going farther than what is expected of me.
51. Ginger is really nice and I hope that my students like me as much as I like him.
52. I am planning on doing a unit on blogging when I am a teacher.
53. I like driving.
54. I hate gas prices.
55. I only keep a small percentage of my paycheck, the part I don’t keep goes into a savings account.
56. I recently watched The Truman Show for the first time and LOVED it.
57. My favorite book of all time is 1984.
58. I love Rohl Dahl.
59. I think that everyone is good at lying about certain things.
60. I really dislike my job now that Cabbage and Flash are gone, but Twin keeps me hanging on.
61. I like feeling like I am needed.
62. I like to work alone rather than in groups even if it means more work for me because I know that I will put forth a good product to receive an A.
63. I have only had one enjoyable year of math and that was because of the amazing teacher.
64. I plan on coming back to my high school next year religiously to visit with Noodles and River.

65. I am so surprised with the amount of admiration I feel for River, usually it takes me much longer to like a teacher as much as I like him.
66. I really like the name Molly, but I don’t know anyone personally with this name.
67. I lied about being sick one day for work; it didn’t gnaw at my conscious at all.
68. I greatly dislike people who talked about themselves in the third person seriously.
69. I would really like to take a course on Greek Mythology, it is so interesting.
70. I know I need a haircut but I have no time to get one.
71. I visit postsecret.com religiously.
72. I didn’t read all of To Kill a Mockingbird
73. I really want to load the Sims game on my computer but for some reason I cannot get it to work.
74. I have over 15 gigs of music on my IPOD
75. I love grocery shopping
76. I used to write beautiful poetry, I don’t know why I don’t anymore.
77. My favorite cartoon as a child was the Magic School Bus.
78. Mediterranean is one person who I feel like I can relate to on such a different level than all my other friends.
79. I love horror films.
80. Sometimes I don’t brush my hair, I just throw it up in a ponytail.
81. I like to braid my hair.
82. Not too many girls my age can pull off pigtails, but I can.
83. I love photoshop.
84. I adore gum.
85. I love texting. I will wake up at any hour of the day if I get a text.
86. When doing projects where you need to fasten a piece of paper to a poster board I prefer to use tape over glue.
87. I always download the itunes free music on Tuesday, who turns down FREE music???
88. I want to ride an ostrich.
89. I’m a very open person. I think I have to be to write a blog…
90. I love ellipses (…)
91. I am on the computer at least for a hour every day, usually more though.
92. I love sxephil on youtube.
93. I have conversations with my cat.
94. I enjoy playing games.
95. I’m okay with spending the majority of my nights at home
96. I LOVE taking pictures but I rarely print them out.
97. I have a lot of really nice jewelry but I usually don’t wear any jewelry besides rings.
98. I don’t have the heart to tell my mom I have grown out of the Ripley’s Believe it or Not books.
99. I am usually peppy all day.
100. I have been in a New York cab, scary experience.

Drainage

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Where I Stood by Missy Higgins.

So, I'm excited because by posting this right now means I am posting my 100th post tomorrow. Ahhhh, how exciting! I am extremely tired right now. I had an extremely draining day. I am going to write a nine page paper now. How fun...

=/

Soul

Zippee

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Take Me Away by Avril Lavigne.

So, I am super excited for my 100th post, and you should be too!!! I will hopefully be posting it tomorrow. I am not done with it yet, but I have been working hard on it. You will 100% for sure learn something new about me from it.

So today was a weird day. The day seemed to go on forever and a lot of teachers gave us busy work. I felt like the day was never going to end. Although I have been feeling like that for some time now. I think it has to do with the fact that I have made my college decision and I've been accepted and I'm not too worried about anything anymore.

I also feel like my life is getting boring. I feel like I am always doing the same thing and I am just sort of sick of it. I texted a bunch of my friends and a couple of them said good things. I got a lot of "i don't know" and "no clue". I could always read more nonfiction books. =D right twin??? On a serious note though, I really want to kick start my life. So, any ideas of what I can do to make my life a bit more interesting???

=)

Soul

Under Waterfalls

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Hot N Cold by Katy Perry.

I have a million and a half things to do today, so instead of doing them, I am blogging. I feel like I need to blog though. I was hoping that Flash could come over today, and he couldn't. I caught glimpse of myself in the mirror after I found out this news and was surprised by what I saw. I saw a pretty girl, a girl who deserves a good guy. I'm not saying that I am not going to see Flash again, but I am officially not as obsessed with the whole situation as I was before.

I realized today, that I deserve someone who likes me. What Flash and I had (have???) is a friendship, nothing more. I think I forgot about that. I think I let the other stuff get to my head. I am going to start putting myself out there more. I think I shelter myself up inside of me, protecting myself from not getting hurt. It's funny, because I told Twin about a month ago to just ask this one guy out. I said "What's the worse that could happen?". I am going to take my own advice, because you know what? The worse that could happen is that I get hurt.

I think I am ready for the pain. It's funny because I think that if Flash came over today, I would have never realized this. So in a funny way, I own this all to Flash.

=)

Soul

Secrets.

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Jolene by Dolly Parton.

So, quick post because I have to leave in ten minutes... I have been texting my secrets to people via postsecret's myspace blog. Sadly, I don't have a myspace so I cannot receive secrets, but I am sending them. My secrets are not very dark, but they are very personal... It is a nice thing to share them with someone who has never met me or never will.

=)

Soul

Venus in Pudding

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to SexyBack by Justin Timberlake.

So... I am like a teeter totter with Flash. Right now I'm up in the air. I feel like that is a pretty good analogy for what is going on inside my head. Last night was so... great. I feel like it is back to how it was before, and after. =) I feel so satisfied with how it is right now. I feel hopeful. However, I know that EVERY friggin' time I've felt hopeful before I have lost, so perhaps maybe the hint is not to get hopeful. I can't not be hopeful though. Hate me if you may, I am continuing on...

=)

Soul

Your Heart

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to nothing.

Maybe the fact that I am not listening to anything gives away that I am not in a good mood. I feel sick to my stomach. I got so invested in something last night, something I shouldn't have. Sure, his phone died, I don't doubt it... But I hate the fact that it affects me. So then I hope that something would happen today, and of course not. He was not the reason I stayed home, but it was a nice thought that something might come of the fact that I am home. Alas, all fails.

=(

Soul

Kitten Musings

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Samson by Regina Spektor.

Sooo, this will not be a long blog (unlike yesterday). Twin is hilarious, I love her. She was already one of the three girls who I call my best friend, but I have gotten to know her on such a... different level the past couple of days. It makes me smile to think about it. She is great.

Oh, and Flash and I are texting... I think that things are getting back to "normal". What, oh what, even is normal??? He makes me smile... Shhhh, don't tell Manhattan. She doesn't approve... Meh, it's not going to stop me...

=)

Soul

Everybody Have Fun...

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to I'm not that Girl from the musical Wicked.

So, my 18th birthday is coming up really soon. I am very excited about it. There is a local 18+ store, a bit on the naughty side if you know what I mean, and my friends and I are going there. It will be Twin, Mediterranean, Platinum (another really close friend of mine), and Manhattan. The only thing is that Manhattan is not 18. So I feel sort of bad because she isn't going to be able to come to that part of the celebration. When I brought it up to her she said that it was better because she thinks it's stupid and she wouldn't want to be seen there. I mean, to each their own, but that sort of hurt. I mean, we are going there to have a good laugh, nothing weird.

Oh, but afterwards I am going to a semi-local video store that has a 18+ section and we are getting some "sensitive materials". I am looking forward to it. I think it will be really funny and I think it'll be a good time overall.

Enough about that. I know that I haven't written about my 'book' in a while. I have started working on it again. Twin is a writer as well and she was talking to me about writing some stuff out of order and since I don't know how to connect the part I'm on now with where I want it to go, I am writing the future scene and going back to connect later. I hope all works out. I am having Twin read part of it tomorrow. I am really nervous because she will be the first person to read it. AHHHH! So, yeah, that's my life.

Oh, wait, River and Ginger are amazing. I'll tackle them one at a time. (Oh and I need to talk about Noodles too!) So River is amazingly funny. I feel like he is one of the most brilliant men I have ever met. He seems to have a neverending wealth of knowledge. I find myself wanting to talk to him all the time because I feel like he inspires me not only to be a better student but also to incorporate my intelligence into everyday conversations. However I feel like a fool because I feel like there is always something I say that makes me feel like an idiot.

Ginger has been having a hard time with our class. It's not his fault, the class is out of control. He is really doing his best and he is an amazing teacher. (oh, and not that I was looking but he has a really great butt as well) He is moving seats tomorrow and I have a thing about sitting in the front of the classroom so I waited after class to talk to him. He seemed so dejected, it broke my heart. I asked him to try and take into consideration that I like sitting in the front and he said that he could do that. He then proceeded to tell me how much he appreciates me in that class. I thought it was really sweet because it's stuff like that keeps me behaving. He's a great guy and I feel bad that the class is so awful.

Okay, now, since I was just talking about moving seats... Noodles moved our seats and so now I'm not sitting next to Puck anymore! I'm definitely sad. Puck and I talked and he is sooo sweet. Now I won't be able to talk to him as much... =( Silly Noodles...

=)

Soul

See Sir, I Saw Saw V!!!

Hello Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Hands by Jewel.

So, I love the Saw franchise. Cary Elwes attracted me to the film originally, I mean who can resist Cary Elwes? Mmmm, Cary Elwes... Anyways, back to Saw... It is great. I think the level of intelligence behind it surpasses films that are currently being made. I think it is a gentle love fest for me. I adore that kind of thing. Which may make you scared and go running for the hills if I like it when people are put in terrifying self-harming situations, but please, I am not saying it because I am a freak or anything.

If you think about the mastery behind each trap of Jigsaw's, it is brilliant. I have immense respect for that as a writer. I have dabbled in darker works of fiction, it is very hard to come up with something that actually works. The writers of Saw I-V are brilliant. Some of the films (*cough* Saw IV *cough*) had a misstep or two as films, but I could still sit down and watch them any day of the week.

Now, onto Saw V. I don't want to ruin it for any of you, so I will try not to. I was extremely disappointed in the first trap, I sat there, hoping that the victim might turn out to be another Amanda (who I LOVE because of her psychological depth). When the trap let me down, I thought, oh no, has Jigsaw failed? But, alas, not to give anything away, it was not a Jigsaw trap. Let's just say it was a copycat. The movie lead me down a beautifully twisted dark path of magic each minute it was on the screen. I loved the main trap. Not only that, but they revisited old traps in flashbacks. It was all amazing. I cannot rave on enough about it.

Ahhhh, now you ask, what about the future??? Yes, there will be a Saw VI. There is a show on Vh1 that debuted tonight (It's on my tivo, I haven't watched it yet tonight (but I will (I'll blog about later))) called Scream Queens. It is casted a female character in Saw VI. I am eagerly waiting for my mom to go to sleep so I can watch it.

I will be the first in line to buy my tickets for Saw XXXVII, without a doubt.

=)

Soul


PS- the theater I was at had a big cut out thing of Tobin Bell's face. So right now the background on my cell phone is me standing next to it. AHHH, greatness!

Non Fiction Books and Pringles

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to If I Were a Boy by Beyonce.

Soooo, the title of this blog is all for Twin. I know she will read this and CRACK up! We have this new inside joke, so everyone else reading this will feel immensely left out. Sorry. Not really. Well, I might blog about the big idea behind the inside joke at a later time. I won't today because then the subject matter of our inside joke will be revealed.

But on a different note, that also relates to Twin a little, boyfriends. SO, here's the deal, I want one. But here's the thing, after Flash and I had our little friendship enhancer, I want a hot boyfriend. I know every girl wants a hot boyfriend, but most girls delude themselves into saying their boyfriends are cute or hot or whatever. There are not enough hot guys to give every girl a hot boyfriend. So, you may ask yourself why I think I deserve one... I don't know. I am a pretty good catch. I think I will need one of those "chubby chasers" though. =) I have no problem with that. Any guys out there who are good looking, clean, (disease free), know how to please a girl, and looking for a full figured girl, gimme a call. =)

Alrighty... Well, that was a bit off track and a little inappropriate. Ah, who cares.

Now, onto a COMPLETELY different subject... River is AMAZING! I love his classes and I love his wisdom on top of everything else. He is honestly one of the best people I have ever met in my life.

=)

Soul

Giggles and full blown Guffaws

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Bad Boy by Cascada.

Okay, so Twin has pointed out to me that I have not been blogging lately. WELL, that's what you might think, but it isn't true... This is my 91st post. I want to do the typical "100th post" post. I have been getting prepared for this. You would be surprised at how few interesting facts that I can come up with about myself. I can't even come up with unique things about myself, even if they aren't interesting, even if they are the most boring fact ever. So, I have been putting off blogging as much as possible. I have been trying to get that all together.

Something made me need to blog though. As some of you might have noticed, there is a visitor counter at the bottom of the page. In the 24 that it has been on my page I have gotten 192 different people on my page and 266 page loads. That's pretty impressive. It allows you to know what search terms people have used to get to my blog as well. This is what made me want to blog today.

Someone came to my page, and more specifically to my first day of summer post. Do you want to know what they searched for that led them to my blog? "Welts on Vagina". I'm sorry, I found this immensely hilarious. Not welts on vaginas, because I'm sure that's extremely painful, but the fact that my blog showed up. So, me being the curious person I am, I googled "welts on vagina" I am the 11th search option. 11th!!! I feel like I should be much farther down the list, I mean... come on, I'm not a doctor, nor have I ever had welts on my vagina.

So, I am sorry to anyone who has come to this blog looking for help on their vagina welts.

=)

Soul

PS- I have had 26 visitors from the UK (hello), 18 from Germany (Hoi), 11 from Romania (Bunã), along with MANY MANY other countries. I would like to say hello in every language that all my visitors speak, but unfortunately I even had to get those from a website. I really appreciate everyone visiting and I hope you all come back!!!

Smiles

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently watching the Magic School Bus with my Cousin.

Okay everyone. Now, to elaborate on Flash because I know that some people disapprove. Flash and I are just friends. We have become closer in the past couple of weeks, but we are just friends. Perhaps that is the thing that people disapprove of, but I'm seizing life. Carpe Diem. Right? I have thought about the whole thing very thoroughly and I have talked to my three best friends about it. One of them doesn't like it but the other two are all for it.

I know that the one friend who disapproves reads this, so I'm not going to speculate why she disapproves, but I do know she does. Here's the thing though, I am happy. Undeniably happy. How can you disapprove of something that makes me happy? I am not going into this blind. I trust Flash and I know what I'm getting myself into. Maybe she's afraid I'm going to get hurt... there I go, speculating...

I don't know. But I'm not going to stop doing it. I'm having the time of my life. I'm extremely happy. I don't know how else to put it. Try to be happy for me though. Thanks.

=)

Soul

Light, Bright, No Silhouettes.

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to nothing.

So, Flash and I talked today for over two hours. It was amazingly perfect. I recommend everyone find a friend like him.

=)

Soul

meh.

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Who Knew by Pink.

So, TODAY didn't happen.

just thought I should keep ya'll updated.

Hopefully it'll happen soon.

Who knows.

He's working now after all...

=(

Soul

Big Problems in a Little Life

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Won't Go Home Without You by Maroon 5.

Whoa Everyone. Let's stop for a moment and take a step back into the world of reality. My life has been changed in the past week. I don't want to think about it in terms of that, but I have changed in a major way.

It's funny because I know not too many people read my blog (hello to the people who do though) but I still don't want to alienate the people who do read it. I feel like exposing the part of me that has changed would make everyone shut down their computers and turn me out of their lives.

I don't know what I'm doing. I am thinking things through though. It makes me feel good, I feel prettier than I have in the longest time. I know it shouldn't. I really do know that. I know that it's something that I maybe shouldn't have done. But you know what? I'm going to do it again. How can I deny something that feels so right?

But does it feel right?

=/

Soul

Quick Quick Quick

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Whisper by the Ying Yang Twins.

Okay, so Flash and I are getting close. I am not interested in being his girlfriend or anything. We are just having a fun time getting to know each other better. However, Twin is disappointed in him and me. I don't really know what I feel. I know I feel good, but I can't put words to it...

I need to talk to Mediterranean. I don't see her until Friday though and I REFUSE to talk about it over texts or over the phone.

Stone is a hottie. Hmmm, nothing else to report.

=)

Soul

Wha...

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to I Wanna be Bad by Willa Ford.

There are no words. I wish it was Thursday.

=)

Soul

Like a bright bolt, you came into my life.

Hi Everyone!

I’m currently listening to Womanizer by Britney Spears.

Oh my goodness everyone! So, Flash is so cool. He stopped working at Twin and mine’s place of employment but we text constantly and he just more and more amazing by the text. I think it’s funny because I think in previous posts I have talked about how I favored Cabbage over Flash. Now, it’s completely the opposite. Some may say that it’s because I talk to Flash more, but I really think it’s because I connect with him on a different level than I do with Cabbage. It’s amusing because in the start of this all I would have never ever thought that I would be talking to Flash daily and Cabbage once a month.

Anyways, Flash is really a good person. I mean some aspects of him definitely aren’t my favorite but I can look past them to see all of his goodness.

And damn does he have goodness.

=)

Soul

Goals

Hi Everyone!

I’m currently listening to Come Round Soon by Sara Bareilles.

I am making a commitment today. I am going to lose 30 pounds by Christmas. It is a reachable goal. That would entail me losing 30 pounds in 86 days. That is sooo totally do-able and completely healthy. I needed a big incentive and I think I have found it. I am going to use this as a check for myself.

I used to drink around 80 ounces of water each day and now I get about 20 ounces. I need to up that again. I also need to cut out my sweets intake. I have gotten quite bad since my vacation over the summer. I had a bowl of ice cream yesterday. I am also going back to working out three times a week. *shudder* I am also going to start eating Lean Cuisines again, and ONLY Lean Cuisines. After Christmas I will set another goal. My overall goal is 65 pounds. I am thinking that I can achieve this by June no problem, which is my definite desired end date.

I can do it.

=)

Soul

Mehhh

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to How Did I Fall in Love with You by the Backstreet Boys.

So... Stone's a hottie. I'm mad at Manhattan. Twin is gorgeous. Noodles is very funny. Ginger is quite possibly the coolest geek nerd teacher EVER. River's classes are the best. This is a short post.

=)

Soul

Hmmmm, soooo today...

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Stranger by Secondhand Serenade.

I slept today. It was the most beautiful day I have ever had. I know that since I bummed around I should go out and do some weeding, clean my house, clean out my car, or get something done. However I have no desire to do any of those things.

I have a desire for everyday of my life to be just like this one. This beautiful peaceful day.

I wonder if I will actually accomplish anything today. =)

I don't mind if I don't.

=)

Soul

Ginger with some WAS-AAAAA-BEEEEEEE!

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Gone Forever by Three Days Grace.

Instead of lamenting about my sucky life right now, I am going to talk about something I think is really cool. So, Friday I went to talk to Ginger after class. Considering we both have a free period it works out really nicely. I wanted to take the time to tell him that I really enjoy his class and the material that we are covering.

So I tell him this and how excited I am about the class. He goes on to tell me how flattered he is and how sorry he is to ME. I was so surprised. He said that he felt bad because he knows that the class is rude and disrespectful. He was telling me that I was one of two students who he feels are taking the class for the right reasons. (The rest are taking it as a blowoff) I thought the whole conversation we had was really cool.

I thought it was nice to see a teacher coming to realize how he needs to control a class. So many teachers these days just let kids get away with way too much.

=)

Soul

Here's the thing...

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Samson by Regina Spektor.

Okay, so my dear dear friend Twin is so beautiful. I am going to praise her endlessly here. She is gorgeous. It is an awkward thing to say to someone, I hope you realize this. It is weird to go up to someone and tell them they are actually breathtakingly beautiful. You can tell someone they look good that day or you like a certain feature about them, but telling them they are always so beautiful, that is awkward.

She is though. I know that, like every girl, she has her insecurities. More than she, or any girl, wants to admit she has. Or perhaps, she does admit them to true friends, for I know she has expressed some to me. I had told her that I know where she is coming from at one point and she pointed out the amount of boyfriends I have had. I then started to wonder if I truly did understand her.

I think that at a certain level I do, and at a certain level I don't. I know what it is like to wonder why every other girl, girls who are no doubt uglier or fatter or less intelligent, has a boyfriend and yet I am sitting here alone on this night alone.

I have gone father to look for a boyfriend than she has though. I know that for a fact. My insecurities led me into bad relationships. Perhaps she is doing it right. However, she deserves more than she thinks.

I wonder if my friends think the same thing. I wonder if they think I deserve as much as I think Twin does. I think she deserves the smartest, cutest, funniest, and most understanding guy. I might get a little jealous, but let's put a qualifier that says he has to have a TWIN brother, hahahaha. That way I get one too!

Anyways, I know you read my blog Twin, and I want you to know that these words are all true and they are strange to say in person, they fumble and tumble, never coming out quite like this.

=)

Soul

Stony Hearts.

Hey Everyone!

I'm Currently listening to Bleed it Out by Linkin Park.

Okay. So, as the title indicates I am going to talk about Stone. I know I have been talking about him lately and that makes me a little nervous. I mean, I think I am getting more attached to all of this. I don't even know what this is, but I am getting attached.

I find myself joking around with him more and more. I find myself smiling. I feel tingly when I'm around him. I find myself wanting to memorize every part of him. I want to commit him to memory. You may ask yourself why, well I have figured out why.

BECAUSE I KNOW THIS WILL ALL END! I have never felt this way before and had it end up well. Here's the thing, I like Taco Bell. I like reading. I like writing. I like to sing obnoxiously. I like to just chill and have fun.

He doesn't.

Now, maybe I am judging before I truly know, but oh well. I am. What are you going to do about it? Hmmm? That's right... NOTHING! Mwhahahaha.

Oh my.

= /

Soul

With a Joker smile and a sincere heart

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Your Call by Secondhand Serenade.

Alright. Let me talk to you for a moment about my love. No, not stone... I don't love stone. I may be in... well, let's leave that for later... I love Taco Bell. I figure it's okay to mention the actual name because they are EVERYWHERE!

So, the Taco Bell nearest to me is always filled with high school kids. Which is pretty cool when you think about it because you always run into someone when you are in there. Whether you like them or not is a completely different story though.

After a recent weekly sporting event, Manhattan and I went to Taco Bell as a "hey I'm hungry and it's cheap and we're teens and therefore love cheap" place. It was great so we've been going there after each of the weekly sporting events. I have to admit that I love it. I don't know that it's so much the food or anything (although the food is delicious) (I have yet to find something I dislike there...) but the fact that I am hanging out with her. It has turned into a community environment. Which sounds even more strange than anything else. However, it is true.

Just thought I would share that with you all. I will be writing frequently now until Tues.

=)

Soul

Whoa, Judge much?

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Secret Crowds by Angels and Airwaves.

Okay, a three things to talk about, Stone (of course), Manhattan, and Puck.

Let's start out with the easy (?) stuff first, Stone. So, the past couple of times that I have had to work in groups in the class that Stone is in, he has worked with me. Or when one day when we were a different room and a group of his friends (he knows them and talks to them and they do a certain extra curricular activity with him, I don't know if they are great friends, but friends yes...) were sitting on the other side of the room than me, there was two open chairs by them and one by me, and he sat by ME!!! Then he always is my partner. I don't know if that is because I sit behind him and it is a convenience thing, or if he likes working with me.

Here's my thought, if he didn't like working with me, he could work with someone else close to him, RIGHT???!!!????!!?!!?? AHHGGGRRRHHHH. I am not reading into anything. Mostly because I know nothing will ever come of this. I need to keep telling myself this, because I have been devastated before, just because my feelings get involved in stupid things. Things that will never work out. Why oh why am I so cursed with these feelings?

I find myself thinking about him though. It scares me. Really scares me.

Okay, change of subject. How about another boy? Okay, so Puck and I sit next to each other (in a different class) and (Noodles' class) Noodles thinks that I like him. I would definitely date him because he is really funny and sweet, and all that jazz. How can I have these two feelings? Although I will say, I think about Puck when I am around Puck. When I am not around anyone, I think about Stone.

Noodles is so great though. I hope to do some travelling with her over the summer. She is the BEST teacher I have ever had the pleasure of learning from. She is a great person too.

Okay, now the big stuff... Manhattan. Manhattan and I have been doing great. She is definitely a big part of my life. I was talking to Noodles this morning about thinking of going to a two year college then transferring. I have many reasons for considering this. However, there is a certain expectation from people around me that I will go to a four year school. There is a certain stigma that going to a two year college gets. Which is sort of funny because one of the smartest economic decisions that you can make is to go to a two year college and transfer. ANYWAYS, I have many reasons for considering this, not to mention my two other best friends, also two of the smartest people I know, are going to a two year school first.

So back to the story, I was telling Noodles all of this and talking to her about it because I really wanted to get an outsider's opinion on it all. Well, about twenty minutes later Manhattan comes in and we were talking about something else. However, Manhattan asked about one of my friends and why I was seeing her because she is supposed to be at college. Noodles informed Manhattan that my friend had decided that the four year college that she was planning on going to didn't fit so (before she even started) she decided to go to a local two year school.

Manhattan went off, saying how she thought that my friend was smart so why was she at that two year school, and how her parents would kill her if she even thought the name of the school. I wanted to yell at her. I mean, yeah, some people go there because they can't get in other places, but hey, they are at least going to school. It's not only there for that purpose though. Noodles was shocked at how judgemental Manhattan was about it. Noodles didn't say anything about the conversation we just had, and neither did I. It was just really sucky.

=/

Soul

On this day...

Hi Everyone.

I'm currently listening to Better in Time by Leona Lewis.

Today is September 11th, 2008. Seven years ago, tragedy struck the nation. Thousands of people died, but millions were effected. Our country shook, but stayed standing. I am proud to call myself an American. I thank everyone who sent money to 9/11 charities. I thank, most of all, the brave men and women who helped New York heal.

: {*} (<-kisses)

Soul

And guess what?!?

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to So What by P!nk.

Well, what has been monopolizing most of my posts these past couple of times? That's just, Stone. It's funny because after my last boyfriend I was completely fine with just being by myself and not liking anyone. These feelings are so intense. They can't be categorized as anything other than lust... can they?

I would have never expected to fall in lust, or like, or whatever with Stone. But I guess the old adage, you can't chose who you love, is right. Although I am not in love. Let's just get that straight. I went out with Mediterranean today and I was telling her about it. She knows him so she could at least put a face with the name. I told her that I didn't expect anything to come of it then said I didn't want anything to come of it. She looked at me, I laughed, of course I want something to come out of it. That's what the humdinger is, no matter how much I know that nothing will come of it, I still want something to come of it.

Dang teenage hormones.

I was thinking about the future and life and the likes. I want to be in love. I sort of always pushed the notion aside and promised myself that love would never come into consideration in my life. Love makes you silly and do rash and stupid things. Perhaps though love isn't as bad as I once thought.

However, Puck is still in the picture. He is so sweet and who knows what goes on in his head. He is super smart and hell-a hilarious. I love being around him because he is so funny. However, I hear that he is like my ex, great friend and horrible boyfriend. I would be silly to involve myself in the same situation again. So, two boys, no choices. =)

Well, that's life, right?

=)

Soul

Life is a funny thing

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Disturbia by Rihanna.

So, now to harp on something, but... Stone. It's funny, because Twin and I were talking about him a little today. I have so far only told Manhattan and Twin. I am too protective about this feeling. You may ask why I would be so secretive. Well, I don't go running around telling people things, I am very protective about who I tell what. Probably why I am so careful on this blog. ANYWAYS!

I want to talk about my feelings. They are so strange. I have never had these thoughts before. Okay, adult content coming up, so if you are easily offended, don't read this post. Or go ahead, I really don't care... So, I am in LUST. It is so freaky because while yeah, I have thought inappropriate thoughts before, I have never thought the thoughts I think. Sweat usually makes me queasy. I don't like people sweating around me, it sort of is creepy. However, I saw Stone sweating and all I could think was to be all up on his sweaty self. Creepy of me. Totally not normal. I am freaking myself out.

Most of all I am scared because he seems to be nice and have a tolerance for me so I would hate to ruin it by saying or doing something stupid. AHHHH! So crazy. Not to mention, I am not stupid. Stone would be repulsed by me having these thoughts. I can't help it though. I want to cry because I can't control it. The thoughts are just there.

=0.... (Drooling over Stone)

Soul

Strong Feelings.

Hi Everyone!

I’m currently listening to Relax (Take it Easy) by Mika.

So this is going to be a bit of a departure from my norm. Maybe not. Who knows what my norm really is. Perhaps my norm is a cynical animal shelter worker psycho vegan who hates ants. Perhaps not. I’m going with not. Although none of those things are bad. ANYWAYS! Back to my original point, if I ever had one…

What makes our bodies react in the ways they do? I had always thought I would never be attracted to a certain type of person. Stone is breaking down all of my barriers in a way I never thought possible. I’ll be honest with you, because I can’t be this honest anywhere else. I want him. I want him in every way a girl can want a guy. I want all his attention to be on ME, all of his body to be MINE, all of his thoughts to be about ME, to have his body yearn for ME. That sounds selfish and clingy. I hate those characteristics. With a passion. However, nothing can change the way we feel.

I dislike the way I feel. I have thoughts that consume my mind and I can’t get rid of. I find myself trying to make him smile, because that smile makes me melt. However, in less than forty weeks I will probably never see him again, except for high school reunions. How depressing. He doesn’t move in remotely the same circles as I do. How very very depressing.

No matter how I spin it though, I will be sad when he is not there. I don’t know why. It is one of those unexplainable feelings. Oh how I hate those unexplainable feelings.

He is very easy to look at though, and look at I shall. And it seems that I will be condemned to only look at.

= /

Soul

Senior!!!

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Sweet Home Alabama by Lynyrd Skynyrd.

Alrighty, well as you all know I am a senior. I have developed this schoolgirl crush on a boy in one of my classes. Actually two boys, in two separate classes. However one of them is so completely wrong for me. Not in the sense that he is a bad person, as far as I know he isn't into drugs or anything bad. He actually is quite smart and very funny. I am naming him Stone. But the whole thing really is a schoolgirl crush. I feel so silly. I mean, if this was going to happen why now? Why not when I was a younger?

I stumbled across a quote though. I thought it was so spot on. It is about trying to get a woman. "Tell the smart ones they're pretty and the pretty ones they're smart". I was thinking about it and it is so true. How sad is that? I don't know... I mean, I know that I'm the same way, but I just think it is incredible saddening.

= )

Soul

My spirals

Hi Everyone!

I’m currently listening to This is Why I’m Hot by Mims.

My life has been a spiraling craze since school started. As much as I want to write here every night it seems more and more impossible as the days go on. I didn’t even do my August 50, sorry to those of you who might have been looking for it. I am going to try and put out two in September, but who knows, it is quite time consuming.

College is looming on the horizons, coming closer and closer, mostly just freaking me out. I need to ask my teachers for recommendations and find out all the necessary information. Most importantly though is sleep.

I have not been getting a lot of sleep lately. Quite frankly, it is affecting me. I hate it. So I go to bed earlier and earlier. At least I try to.

=O (yawning)

Soul

School's Back

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Daughter to Father by Lindsey Lohan.

So, school has started and back to the grindstone once again. I sort of just want to talk about my life events right now.

First period I have AP English IV. The teacher, I shall call him River. Well, River is what every teacher should be like. He is so smart and really gets me excited for class and learning, well, him and the material. This one guy who I despise is in the class, but so is one of my really good friends. So I guess it's a bit of a give and take situation.

Second period is my history class. The teacher is constantly cracking jokes and just being nice. I was really looking forward to this class because there are so many people who I don't actually know, but today we worked in groups and of course the teacher paired me up with three girls I knew. I was sort of frustrated, and I think I took it out on them. Whoops. Well, they were being apathetic, and I hate that.

Third period I have NOTHING. It is a nice break in my day. I have definitely been taking advantage of it.

Fourth period is my AP french class. The teacher I shall call Noodles. Well, Noodles is soooo nice. I had her my fresh and soph year, so we have a great rapport. Also, a nice boy is in my class (I am naming him Puck). So Puck sits close to me and he is really funny and super nice. I hear from my sources (his ex) that he is like my ex, a good friend and a bad boyfriend. Oh well, it's always nice to have a bit of eye candy.

Fifth period I have astronomy. I am really interested in this class. I will probably try and take another course in college. However, because it is a low level elective many students in it look at it as a blowoff class and just talk and disrespect the teacher. (I'm calling the teacher Ginger). I am probably one of three people who are respectful. I don't like that. But I love the class.

Sixth is nothing again.

Seventh is my computer programming class. I am the ONLY girl. UGH! I only know one boy in there, luckily he is really nice and we're friends.

Eighth I have River again as my teacher. I love this class, it is a class that analyzes media. I am loving it already, right now we are thinking about music and I have to pick five significant songs. It has turned out to be quite difficult to choose five.

Then last is gym. uggh, don't even make me talk about this.

=)

Soul

My life =)

Hello Everyone!

I am currently listening to Shut up and Drive by Rihanna.

So, it has been a while since my last post. I am truly sorry about that. My mom has been home constantly though and it has been hard to get a moment away. It really has. But I am back! I promise!!! So, I have been reading a lot lately. I love it. I might make another blog page that talks about the books I read. Who knows though. I have so much on my plate with this blog, Llanview Musings, and real life, that I barely have time for anything else.

I babysat yesterday. It was so nice. I have been babysitting this one girl for a couple of years and this summer I haven't done it at all because of my being out of the area. So yesterday was really nice. I am really sad though because her mother asked if I could babysit Sunday or Monday and I couldn't either day. I'm going to see TDK for the third time on Sunday (with Twin and Flash) and on Monday I am going to go for an adrenaline ride with some family. I am really excited. I am working Saturday (with Twin and Flash) then don't have work until Wednesday.

I have been working with Flash a lot lately and I have come to really adore him. He is soo funny and just a great person to be around. I am happy to be back at work and around the people I have come to love.

Not much else is going on in my life. I start my final year of high school in FOUR DAYS! It makes me a bit crazy thinking about it. I literally have dreams about it. Not the days, but little things like finding a parking spot. Sort of crazy. Speaking of parking spots though, my mom is buying our second car Labor day weekend and I am SOOOOO EXCITED. That means I get the current car!!!!!! I get the car!!!! WOO HOO!!!

= D

Soul

Love at first laugh

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Piece of Me by Britney Spears.

I would like to address the brilliance of something. A television show. The Office. O-M-G. I am officially in love. When the show started, I wrote it off as another dumb show. I watched once and didn't really get the humor of it all. However this summer I started watching it for free here. I was laughing so hard Hattie would look at me like I was crazy.

I couldn't get enough. So when I returned home I put each season on hold at my local library. I watched them like a crack addict looking for their next score. I just got season three today and I am beyond excited. I LOVE this show! I am just saying, if you aren't watching this show, you are missing out on something so superbly amazing.

I love Jim. He seems like one of those guys who is the perfect man. He has such a good sense of humor, and he is good lookin'. Since I've already seen season four, it sort of ruins season three's Karen thing, but whatever.

I just wanted to inform you of my new love...

=)

Soul

Weighty problem

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to I'm the Man by Elliot Yamin.

Okay, so you all have read about my weight, issues. I have been trying and trying to lose weight for a while. I exercised (really hardcore exercised) with my personal trainer, for the first time in like about a month and a half, yesterday. It was intense and I am so sore today. It did get me thinking though because I gained about 8 pounds in the month of July. It started me thinking if I really want to go down this path.

I hate being my size, literally despise it. However, I love eating (never would have guessed it...). My love of eating might just take over my hatred of my size. So, have been thinking. I only have my senior year left. Then I am going to be off in the real world. I can find someone who is more mature and willing to look past my weight to love me. Trust me, even though I am heavy, I am nowhere near ugly. I'm also quite funny and intelligent (extremely modest too =D ). So I figure, why give up my love of eating for something so trivial as weight?

There is this battle being waged inside my mind. So I figure, I lose thirty more pounds and then I will decide if I want to go any further. This battle is consuming my soul though, too bad it doesn't consume some of my fat, then it would be win-win...

=)

Soul

College bound...

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Love me Dead by Ludo. (Thanks to Twin for the recommendation)

So, obviously I have been thinking about college a lot lately. Why obviously? Well, because that is the age I am at. So, I have taken on the assumption that I will go to a midsized private university (approx. 8000 students). I love the campus and student body. I actually love the school. However, a new thought entered my head this summer.

I love my mom. I actually really adore her. You have all read about my dad. (Here and Here) That has made me become really close to my mom. So, this summer was a really hard time for me because I missed her a great deal. So I am looking into some quality four year universities that I can commute to. Just to look into it, you know? We'll see...

=)

Soul

Movie Stars and Tears Worth Gold Plated Mice

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Fat Bottom Girls by Queen.

Okay, so I am a bit of a movie aficionado, at least that's what I tell myself to justify watching all those movies... I can cry at almost any movie, horror, drama, comedy, anything. It is one of my hidden talents. I barely cry to real life stuff, but once that movie reel gets started, so do my tear ducts.


I do admit to being one of those girls who wants that movie-esque romance. I sit at movies wondering when my Bill/Noah/Patrick/Scott/Dean/Hank/other will show up and sweep me off my feet. I am not looking for flowers delivered daily or dinners on the top of the Empire State building. I am simply looking for a man who loves me as much as I love him. It always seems like those guys are housed in hushed movie theaters and on my television screen.

Well, that was a sad look into my life...

= (

Soul


PS- if someone can correctly identify all of the 6 fictional men who I mentioned, then I shall give them something, Bill is a hard one. So are two maybe three others.

No Dog Days Here!

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to I'm Like a Lawyer With the Way I'm Always Trying to Get You Off (Me & You) by Fall Out Boy.

Okay, so I am back in my home sweet home abode. I have already seen Manhattan. She is coming over to my home sweet home abode later too. I am extremely tired, but I have way too much to do, no sleeping time. Actually, the reason I am blogging right now is because I have too much to do. What can I say, I procrastinate amazingly well. Okay, let's see. I need to do some work outside, which stinks, because I am not an outdoors girl, AT ALL! Then I need to put away my clothes and everything. Which probably won't be that bad, considering most of the stuff in my suitcase is underwear or formal dresses. I don't think I've ever owned so much underwear in my whole life.

Grandâme one day thought that I needed some new underwear. I was fine with that, every girl can always use some cute new things. However, forty minutes and two hundred dollars later, I have enough underwear to last me at least six months now. My mom thought getting me to do my laundry before was bad, now it'll be impossible.

Anyways, then I also have to clean the cat litter and random other little things. I am happy to be home though. Even if I am a little tired. I'm usually not even awake right now. Although I am really excited because Black Hockey Jesus emailed me! I get really excited over people whose blogs I like. Black Hockey Jesus happens to be one of those people. Really, go read him! He even has me on his blog roll. I know, impressive.

Okay, so I promised myself that I would write a complete post to TDK (The Dark Knight). That will be coming, so get ready for it. It will blow your mind. I saw it at 12:01 am on the Friday it opened. That's all I'm going to say for now.

Oh, for the people who are anxiously awaiting my soap opera blog, I need to catch up, I am two days behind the episodes. Sorry, but I have been away, cut me a break!

I really need to go and start doing the things that I have been procrastinating against. =( Well, I am going back to everyday posts!

=)

Soul

Summer Songs

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to... (see below)

Okay, I am making a summer soundtrack. So, here it is, make any comments for suggestions!

1. I kisssed a girl- Katy Perry
2. Disturbia- Rihanna
3. Take a Bow- Rihanna
4. Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis
5. Lollipop- Lil Wayne
6. Viva la Vida- Coldplay
7. Pocketful of Sunshine- Natasha Bedingfield (the original, not the remix)
8. Dangerous- Kardinal Offishall
9. When I Grow Up- Pussycat Dolls
10. Damaged- Pussycat Dolls
11. Shake it- Metro Station
12. It's not my time- 3 Doors Down
13. American Boy- Estelle feat. Kanye West
14. Fall for You- Secondhand Serenade
15. In the Ayer- Flo Rida feat. Will.i.am
16. Realize- Colbie Caillat

I am still on the fence whether to include Handlebars by Flobots.

=)

Soul

My dirty little secret

Hi Everyone.

I'm currently listening to Stab my Back by The All American Rejects.

Okay. So, I have something to admit. I love One Life to Live. Yes, the soap opera. It is a funny thing too, I was just like all of you once upon a time. I thought they were silly and over-acted. I still think they are implausible and over-acted, but I am addicted.

You end up in a love/hate relationship with the characters. So, I am going to start another blog, attached to this one, you can find it over --> there on my blogroll. I will post on there everytime I watch the show. So if you know anyone who watches the show, pass my blog along. I will be brilliant, I promise.

=)

Soul

MMM, Delicious

Hi Everyone!


I'm currently listening to Crazy by Gnarls Barkley.

Okay, so I have been thinking lately as to what exactly I find attractive. I figure, why not make a list of the top 50 celebrities I think are D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S... So here they are, in NO ORDER (except for the #1)!


50- Matthew Gray Gubler. Mmmm, sexy nerd on criminal minds...

49- Brendan Fraser. Hot Hot Hot.

48- Penn Badgley. Delicious as the other brother in John Tucker Must Die. Have to say, I prefer the longer hair... Mmmmm.

47- Josh Holloway. Sarcastic Sexy Sunovabitch as Sawyer in LOST!

46- Ben Foster. A crush since I was little and saw him on Flash Forward.

45- Vince Vaughn. A funny guy is always hot.

44- Erik Von Detten. (18+ please) He was good lookin' when he was younger and sure as hell grew up nicely.

43- Kevin Bacon. 50 and HOT!

42- Ryan Phillipe. One word, DAMN.

41- Will Smith. He is gorgeous.

40- Ryan Reynolds. Funny, sexy, a must have on my top 50. Drooooool!

39- Chad Kroeger. Lead Singer of Nickelback, hotness!

38- Pete Wentz. Sort of Gross that he's attracted to Ashlee Simpson, but still hot.

37- John Hensley. Gorgeous Gorgeous Gorgeous! Hot Hot Hot!

36- Seth Gabel. What a hot bad boy. What a weakness I have.

35- Jason Lewis. (18+ again please) Well, Mr. Smith, what have we here?

34- David Duchovny. I became weak in the knees when watching Californication.

33- Brendon Urie. I'd be willing to perform a couple of sins for this guy.

32- Chris Daughtry. Hottie.

31- Michael C. Hall. Damn fine serial killer.

30- Leonardo DiCaprio. Mmmm, hotness.

29- James Marsden. hot. period.

28- Christian Bale. Hot voice, mmmm, he can make me do naughty things with that voice of his.

27- Johnny Depp. Cliche, but true.

26-Eric Balfour. He has a definite sex appeal.


25- Jake Gyllenhaal. Come on... Hotness.

24- Justin Timberlake. Although he really isn't my type, his sultry lyrics can make any girl weak in the knees.

23- Shia LaBeouf. Annoyed the hell out of me on Even Stevens, but he has turned into a fiiinnneee strapping man...

22- Zac Efron. Despise HSM, but he has quite a bod on him...

21- Colin Farrell. Mmmm, I likes me some Irish Bad Boy...

20- Josh Hartnett. Haven't seen him around in a while, but he's easy on the eyes...

19- Jared Padalecki. Captured my heart as Dean on Gilmore Girls...

18- Ryan Gosling. If he's a bird, I'm a bird.

17- Kiefer Sutherland. He's hot.


16- Justin Chambers. He may just play a doctor on tv, but he can check my stats any day...

15- Jesse Spencer. Hottie with an accent.


14- Channing Tatum. I am melting just thinking about him...

13- Shemar Moore. Fantastic...

12- Shane West. Fell head over heels when I saw Once and Again...

11- James Franco. He looks dark and mysterious...


10- Hugh Laurie. Sarcastic, British, and wildly hilarious, what else is needed?

9-Chad Michael Murray. He's an all american boy.


8- Julian McMahon. Mmmm, Doctor Troy...

7- Chester Bennington. Oooo, Rock Hotness...

6- Johnny Rzeznik. Some more Hot hotness...

5- Jon Bon Jovi. The ULTIMATE rock hottie!

4- Jeremy Bloom. (No relation to below as far as I know...) I would watch sports for this hottie.

3- Orlando Bloom. Inspire the naughty elf nymph in all of us...

2- Chris Noth. Who doesn't want Mr. Big?

1- Heath Ledger. Always has been and always will be my number 1. (RIP)


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Soul

Disgusting.

Hi Everyone!

I'm listening to You Ruined Me by JC Chasez (the cute one from N* Sync).

Well, once the blog bug bites, there is nothing to soothe the itch except actually blogging. I have written about my battle with my weight many times on my glorious blog. Well, since I have been with my grandparents this whole month I have gained 8 pounds. While that might not seem like too much to you, that is enough to make me want to cry.

I sit here, depressed with my decline. I was doing pretty well, but now I'm back to numbers I never wanted to see again. I don't want to go back to life being sickeningly disgusting. I'm throwing that part of my life away. I promise I will do whatever it takes to lose the weight. I will go back to my senior year looking like a billion dollars (because I already look like a million).

The thing is, I need to keep a good attitude as to what I look like now, because I know change is not overnight. I need to remember I look good now, because slipping to old habits is too easy if I think I look bad. Going to bad habits is an icy slope I don't want to go down. Also, I promised Flash I would never do that again.

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Soul

A bit ashamed...

Hi everyone!

I'm currently listening to 1985 by Bowling for Soup.

So, I plan on being an english teacher, high school english teacher. I took my AP english course and just got the score back... a 4. I am sort of disappointed. I mean, shouldn't I be getting a 5? I was soooo commited and I missed a huge trip downtown so I could study and I knew colloquial! I'm just disappointed in myself.

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Soul

mediterranean inspired

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to a fan blowing in the corner somewhere...

ten random things about me
1. My shoe size is either 8 or 8 1/2.
2. I lose things relatively easily.
3. I lied about something to a friend once, and it is the reason I can never be friends with her again.
4. A man named Alex saved my life once.
5. If I could have any superpowers I would want the ability to communicate with animals
6. Out of the four people who I think will be life long friends from high school, I got to really know two this year.
7. I wish I could meet and conversate with Stephen King.
8. I dislike onions.
9. I could live off of Taco Bell.
10. I cannot wait to decorate my home.

nine places I've visited
1. Hartford, CT
2. Salem, Mass.
3. Somewhere in Maine
4. Palm Springs, CA
5. Busch Gardens, FL
6. Wisconsin Dells, Wis.
7. Rhode Island
8. New Jersey
9. Washington DC

eight things i want to do before i die
1. Write and publish a full length novel
2. go on jeopardy
3. Visit all 50 states
4. Go to Paris
5. Pull a true all nighter
6. Have a truly romantic movie style whirlwind romance
7. roast marshmallows over a fire
8. learn something everyday

seven ways to win my heart
1. be able to make me laugh
2. love animals
3. love me unconditionally
4. be able to hold a good conversation
5. be a gentleman
6. love my family
7. don't be able to live without me

six things i believe in
1. god
2. people can have genuine fun without drugs or alcohol
3. good things happen to good people
4. bad things happen to good people
5. Miracles can happen
6. love

FIVE things im afraid of
1. Dying alone
2. waking up one day and realizing I don't have any friends
3. Something bad will happen to my cat or my mom
4. Not getting into the college I want to go to
5. never being able to really open myself up

FOUR of my favorite items in my bedroom
1. my bed
2. my phone
3. my glider
4. my television

THREE things i do every day
1. brush my teeth
2. love
3. talk to my mom

TWO things i am trying not to do right now
1. go to sleep
2. go and get a reese's before I'm done with this...

ONE person i want to see right now
1. Mediterranean

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Soul

So Long Since Last Post

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to She will be loved by Maroon 5.

I know some of you are on the edge of your seats to figure out what happened with Bucket. He turned out to be a major jerk. I am happy that nothing came of it. Now I look back with disgust as I think that I was even considering that doing things went through my mind.

Onto other topics though. My Summer has been going soooo amazingly well. I'm spending my time shopping and tanning and making lifelong memories. I've read sooo many books since July 1st. I'm just a bookworm. I don't mind admitting it. I've read 14 books in the first 12 days of July. =) My previous record for a Summer was 50 books. My total right now is 21, maybe I can beat my previous record. Sometimes I hate telling people my book number because it leads them to believe I have no life. Which is soooo not true. I just stay up to the wee hours of the morning devouring books.

I have a really good idea for a book. It is based off of a dream I had not too long ago. We'll see how it goes. My previous "hope to be book" starting has been getting cold in my hard drive. Which is a terrible thing, but what can say? I am really going to try to start it up again, but I don't know if it'll work.

Well, got to sleep, busy day tomorrow. I don't know when the next time I'm going to post is, but I'll be back to my regular postings come August. PROMISE!

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Soul

This might just be too much

Hi everyone.

I'm currently listening to NO MUSIC! =(

Bucket is on my mind. What if I can't do this? What if I do happen to do this and it goes bad? What if I do this then regret it? Why do I want to do this? What about the other guy? I don't even know if the other guy would be interested, but is it even worth a shot? Is this frightened state normal? I've never felt this with any other guy, this nervous fear. Is it fear? Perhaps it is another emotion that I can't quite put my finger on...

What if this is the wrong choice for me?

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Soul

Life Love Live

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to NO MUSIC! = (

Anyways... I am visiting my Grandâme and my Hattie (my grandpa and Grandâme's husband). I am so excited to be here. I have already been so occupied and thrilled just to be here. Although I have eaten out EVERY DAY since I've been with them. Surprisingly though I have dropped two pounds. I have been working out with Hattie and doing water aerobics with Grandâme. Also, drum roll please, I'm going to start volunteering.

There is a no kill animal shelter in the town I'm in, so it is a perfect volunteer place. I miss my cat and animals love me. So I figure it's a win-win. I don't even care about putting it down on my college applications, I'm purely just doing it to feel good.

Well, there is this guy out here. I shall call him Bucket. I'll write more when there is more to know...

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Soul

work

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to I Know What Boys Like by The Waitresses.

So, I had work today, with Twin and Flash. I had a great time. I have spent so much time with Flash these past couple of weeks that the man who I once did not have positive feelings for has now become one of my favorite people. He is the guy all the ladies want. The fact is that he has a sort of charisma about him, and that makes him desirable. He is such a great person, a genuine, nice, funny guy.

I'm leaving my state on Saturday though, I'm soooo excited.

Okay, well, I wanted to write more, but I have a whole bunch of stuff to do...

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Soul

Packing Frenzy

Hi Everyone!

I'm Currently listening to I'm a Slave for You by Britney Spears.

I did so much over the weekend. I worked, alone, on Saturday. After working I came home and helped my mom clean our house, it was a chore and a half. Oh, and when I woke up I got up and weeded for two hours, before work. So Saturday was all work and no play for me. Sunday I went and saw a musical, it was really good. I saw it with my mom, aunt and grandma. The grandma who I went to see the musical with was not Grandâme, it was my other grandma, who I shall nickname Kleenex. ANWAYS, we went to a brunch buffet before the musical and I pigged out. It was sooo delicious. It's funny because I got sort of sick. I just wasn't used to eating like that. Then they came back to my house and we chatted until the wee hours of the morning. It was very nice to just bond with family.

I have the amazing Cabbage and Twin at work, I even have another great guy there. He is awesome. That sounds so lame, awesome. He is though, we have connected over the past month like no other. He is a genuine person. What you see is what you get. I'm calling him Flash. Well, Flash has been so open with me and exposed a part of himself that makes me melt. I am a sucker for a honest person. So, he's great.

Anyways, so even though I have these three great people at work there of course is a downfall. There is a woman who works there who has the same position that I do and she never does any of her work. It is so frustrating. I have had to deal with her for the past two and a half weeks and I want to pull my hair out! I actually started contemplating quitting my job. I still might if Twin ends up leaving. See, Twin is a year older than me so she is starting college next year. Right now she is contemplating commuting or going out of state. If she quits, there is no question in my mind what I'll do.

So, I'm exhausted...

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Soul

Crazy turn of life

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Imagine by Avril Lavigne.

I'm sitting in an a darkened room and thinking. How deep. =) Seriously though, something has been weighing on my mind, one of my friends and our situation. I shall call her Mail. She is a great girl. When Manhattan and I were having problems the summer between freshmen and sophomore year, Mail was always there for me. Our friendship has been the one constant throughout my high school years. No matter what we have always been there for each other. Her family treats me like a family member. I feel like we are growing into separate people though.

Mail's interests are MUCH different than mine. Also, it seems that Manhattan and I can talk about ANYTHING, and usually do, whereas Mail seems closed off. Manhattan and I are very much into girl talk and sharing every bitty little detail and Mail is a bit more naive. Not that there is a problem with that, but I feel like she talks stuff up sometimes. I despise people who amp up stories to impress others, I like her for her, but more and more recently I find that she hasn't been "her" for a while.

I don't know what to do. We had lunch yesterday, it was really sweet because I was sick and she brought lunch to me because we had set up the hang out time earlier. But when lunch went on I couldn't help but feel that there wasn't too much to talk about. We ended up looking at pictures on facebook for the last thirty minutes we hung out...

who knows though, maybe the school year will be different. Not to mention that we said we need to have a sleepover before senior year starts, I think it's a good idea...

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Soul

Decisions

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Wish You Were by Kate Voegele.

So I made a decision to go down and spend five weeks in a completely different state with my grandparents. I am really excited about it. My grandma (Grandâme will be her nickname) is amazing. I want to spend every day with her, sadly she lives a whole long plane ride away. So this is a great solution. She is one of those great people who swears and tells the best stories. She rebelled against her time period and didn't conform to society's imposements. It is really great to spend time with her.

Not to mention she lives in a gated retirement community where everyone loves me because I'm 17 and care enough to spend time with my grandparents. They all dote over me and tell me that they wish their grandkids were as nice as me. I have to admit I like the attention.

Well, I think that's it. I have bunches to do around ma maison. So, au revoir!

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Soul

Reading

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to These Walls by Teddy Geiger.

For my AP English IV class next year I have 20 books to choose 4 of which I will read. I have already eliminated the Dickens and Shakespeare which leaves me with 17 books to choose from. I am going to sort of talk through each one here. Give me your opinions too!

Bronte, Jane Eyre-
I can buy it for $4.95. It's 558 pages. "Jane Eyre is an extraordinary coming-of-age story featuring one of the most independent and strong-willed female protagonists in all of literature. Poor and plain, Jane Eyre begins life as a lonely orphan in the household of her hateful aunt. Despite the oppression sheendures at home, and the later torture of boarding school, Jane manages to emerge with her spirit and integrity unbroken. She becomes a governess at Thornfield Hall, where she finds herself falling in love with her employer—the dark, impassioned Mr. Rochester. But an explosive secret tears apart their relationship, forcing Jane to face poverty and isolation once again." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Jane-Eyre/Charlotte-Bronte/e/9781593080075/?itm=1)

Sounds interesting enough. The price is enticing but the page length can be a bit foreboding.

Chopin, The Awakening-
I can buy it for $4.50. It's 190 pages. "An American classic of sexual expression that paved the way for the modern novel, The Awakening is both a remarkable novel in its own right and a startling reminder of how far women in this century have come. The story of a married woman who pursues love outside a stuffy, middle-class marriage, the novel portrays the mind of a woman seeking fulfillment of her essential nature." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Awakening/Kate-Chopin/e/9780380002450/?itm=1)

The price and length both attract me. However I don't know if the writing style is one that will captivate me. Anyone read this??? Opinions???

Conrad, Heart of Darkness-
I can buy it for 3.95. It is 102 pages. "Horror awaits Marlow, a seaman assigned by an ivory company to retrieve a cargo boat and one of its employees, Mr. Kurtz who is stranded in the heart of the Africa, deep in the Belgian Congo. Marlow's journey up the brooding dark river soon becomes a struggle to maintain his own sanity as he witnesses the brutalization of the natives by white traders and discovers the enigmatic Mr. Kurtz. Kurtz, once a genius and the company's most successful representative, has become a savage. His compound is decorated by a row of human heads mounted on spears. The demonic mastermind, liberated from the conventions of European culture, has traded his soul to become ruler of his own horrific dominion. " (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Heart-of-Darkness/Joseph-Conrad/e/9780979660733/?itm=2)

The first part of it sounds boring but the heads on stakes part is a bit intriguing. The price and length are once again very nice numbers. This might be a good possibility if someone tells me that this is an enjoyable read...

Dostoevski, Crime and Punishment-
I can buy it for $3.50. It has 480 pages. "The poverty-stricken Raskolnikov, a talented student, devises a theory about extraordinary men being above the law, since in their brilliance they think “new thoughts” and so contribute to society. He then sets out to prove his theory by murdering a vile, cynical old pawnbroker and her sister. The act brings Raskolnikov into contact with his own buried conscience and with two characters — the deeply religious Sonia, who has endured great suffering, and Porfiry, the intelligent and discerning official who is charged with investigating the murder — both of whom compel Raskolnikov to feel the split in his nature. Dostoevsky provides readers with a suspenseful, penetrating psychological analysis that goes beyond the crime — which in the course of the novel demands drastic punishment — to reveal something about the human condition: The more we intellectualize, the more imprisoned we become." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Crime-and-Punishment/Fyodor-Dostoevsky/e/9780486415871/?itm=3)

While this sounds like an amazingly good read, I don't think it will be able to hold my attention... Anyone care to dispute?

Ellison, Invisible Man-
I already have it thanks to Mediterranean. It is 608 pages. "The nameless narrator of the novel describes growing up in a black community in the South, attending a Negro college from which he is expelled, moving to New York and becoming the chief spokesman of the Harlem branch of "the Brotherhood", and retreating amid violence and confusion to the basement lair of the Invisible Man he imagines himself to be." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Invisible-Man/Ralph-Ellison/e/9780679732761/?itm=4)

The fact that I already have it and it is annotated makes me want to read it... Mediterranean, what do you think?

Euripides, Medea-
I can get it for $4.99. It has pages 56. "Medea has been abandoned by her husband. Jason, for whom she has sacrificed so much, has left her and their two children for a younger woman. Strong-willed and fiercely intelligent, Medea turns her formidable energies to exacting the most horrifying revenge possible on those who have injured her. " (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Medea/Euripides/e/9781599869117/?itm=4#TOC)

Sounds very good. I think that this is on my list.

Faulkner, Sound and the Fury-
I can get it for 11.95. It has 448 pages. "The Sound and the Fury is made up of undifferentiated streams of consciousness that ultimately turn out to be the inner voices of a family's siblings. Its construction is so masterful that the last sentence refers the reader back to the first one, as any perfect work of art might do. Sound has the earmarks of a modern psychological study, although the book was published in 1929. It is a dramatic and harrowing tale of the Compson family's pathology—primarily in the form of incest and incestuous thoughts." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/The-Sound-and-the-Fury/William-Faulkner/e/9780393964813/?itm=7)

Sounds really good, but I think I would rather just read it for my own pleasure and get it from the library than read it for school...

Gardner, Grendel-
I can buy it for $11.95. It has 192 pages. "The first and most terrifying monster in English literature, from the great early epic BEOWULF, tells his side of the story. " (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Grendel/John-Champlin-Gardner/e/9780679723110/?itm=4)

Ummm, I think I would need to read Beowolf... right???

Heller, Catch-22-
I can buy it for $16.00. It has 464 pages. "Arguably the best novel to come out of World War II, in which Heller strips away the veneer of martial glory to expose its insanity, and gives our language a new paradoxical phrase to describe mankind at the mercy of its own institutions." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Catch-22/Joseph-Heller/e/9780684833392/?itm=15)

I don't think this is my type of book...

James, Turn of the Screw-
I can buy it for 3.99. It has 160 pages. "Gripping ghost story by great novelist depicts the sinister transformation of 2 innocent children into flagrant liars and hypocrites. An elegantly told tale of unspoken horror and psychological terror." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Turn-of-the-Screw/Henry-James/e/9780812533415/?itm=1)

I have wanted to read this since it was featured in LOST, maybe this is my chance. It sounds good and is a reasonable price too!

Kesey, One flew over the Cuckoo's Nest-
I can buy it for $9.99. It has 336 pages. "unforgettable story of a mental ward and its inhabitants, especially the tyrannical Big Nurse Ratched and Randle Patrick McMurphy, the brawling, fun-loving new inmate who resolves to oppose her. We see the struggle through the eyes of Chief Bromden, the seemingly mute half-Indian patient who witnesses and understands McMurphy's heroic attempt to do battle with the powers that keep them all imprisoned." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/One-Flew-over-the-Cuckoos-Nest/Ken-Kesey/e/9780451163967/?itm=9)

Sounds interesting but I don't know if it one of those books that I will hate because I HAVE to read it so I should just put it off until I have some spare time...

McCullers, Ballad of the Sad Cafe-
I can buy it for $7.95. It has 160 pages. "A haunting tale of a human triangle that culminates in an astonishing brawl, the novella introduces readers to Miss Amelia, a formidable southern woman whose café serves as the town's gathering place. Among other fine works, the collection also includes "Wunderkind," McCullers's first published story written when she was only seventeen about a musical prodigy who suddenly realizes she will not go on to become a great pianist." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/The-Ballad-of-the-Sad-Cafe/Carson-McCullers/e/9780618565863/?itm=2)

One of the reviews said it was dreary and hard to get through at some places...

Momaday, House Made of Dawn-
I can buy it for $13.00. It has 208 pages. "tells the story of a young American Indian named Abel, home from a foreign war and caught between two worlds: one his father's, wedding him to the rhythm of the seasons and the harsh beauty of the land; the other of industrial America, a goading him into a compulsive cycle of dissipation and disgust." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/House-Made-of-Dawn/N-Scott-Momaday/e/9780060931940/?itm=4)

I can pretty much tell you I'm not reading this...

Morisson, Beloved-
I can buy it for 13.95. It has 322 pages. "Sethe, its protagonist, was born a slave and escaped to Ohio, but eighteen years later she is still not free. She has too many memories of Sweet Home, the beautiful farm where so many hideous things happened. And Sethe’s new home is haunted by the ghost of her baby, who died nameless and whose tombstone is engraved with a single word: Beloved." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Beloved/Toni-Morrison/e/9781400033416/?itm=1)

No. I don't think so...

Salinger, Catcher in the Rye-
I can buy it for $6.99. It has 224 pages. "Salinger's classic coming-of-age story portrays one young man's funny and poignant experiences with life, love, and sex." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Catcher-in-the-Rye/J-D-Salinger/e/9780316769488/?itm=6)

I so badly have wanted to read this for a long time. I have heard great things. I definitely think this is on my list.

Thompson, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas-
I can buy it for $13.95. It has 204 pages. "savagely comic account of what happened to this country in the 1960s. It is told through the writer's account of an assignment he undertook with his attorney to visit Las Vegas and 'check it out.' The book stands as the final word on the highs and lows of that decade, one of the defining works of our time, and a stylistic and journalistic tour de force" (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Fear-and-Loathing-in-Las-Vegas/Hunter-S-Thompson/e/9780679785897/?itm=1)

mehh...

Williams, Streetcar Named Desire-
I can buy it for 7.50. It has 142 pages. "The play reveals to the very depths the character of Blanche du Bois, a woman whose life has been undermined by her romantic illusions, which lead her to reject—so far as possible—the realities of life with which she is faced and which she consistently ignores. The pressure brought to bear upon her by her sister, with whom she goes to live in New Orleans, intensified by the earthy and extremely "normal" young husband of the latter, leads to a revelation of her tragic self-delusion and, in the end, to madness." (http://search.barnesandnoble.com/A-Streetcar-Named-Desire/Tennessee-Williams/e/9780451167781/?itm=7)

I have no opinion...

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Soul