My old Job

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to The Remedy by Jason Mraz.

So, I obviously had to quit my job to move. Well, I quit my job about two months ago as well [the move that didn't happen]. I thankfully got my job back once the move didn't happen. I was very thankful of this. Unfortunately, will my issues inside of my house, I am forced to move. This time it isn't about my choices. I am happy, I am excited, but it is also a bitter way to do things. And I'm just talking with my family here. However, I had to quit my job once again. Something that was so hard for me to do the first time. I knew that I could not go through that again. I also knew my boss was out of town so left with one of two options, I went with the one that made more sense to me, emailing her. A voice mail would be too short. I wrote and rewrote the email, I wanted it to be perfect. Finally I got it to say what I wanted it to. I was nervous and wanted my sadness to be conveyed. I didn't want my boss thinking this was something that I wanted.

However, in the response that I got back, my boss was obviously upset. Which is understandable. However, she also said some things in the email that were blatantly not true. Perhaps the one coworker who I do not like has told her things, perhaps she just wants to blame me for things as an easy way out. I do not know, and I do not care to speculate. The job was wonderful and I had a fantastic time when I worked there. However I am saddened to say that two months ruined two years of a possibly great reference. I understand her desire to focus on the now, but the past two months have been hard in my house. I explained that in the email, but she brushed it off, making comment about work ethic.

I was offended by this. However, more so than my offense that I took about my work ethic from my boss, is the response that it got from a friend. Twin is upset. I'm not sure if it is about her finding out I was moving from my blog, or something else. It hurts to say that this perhaps is the straw. Our fragile friendship was moving in the right direction, but her lack of response to certain things and the tone that is in what she does choose to write to me is clear of the fact that something is not right. It is sad.

However, no matter how saddened I am by the responses I have gotten from the people associated with my job, I am extremely excited.

:)

Soul

Sky's Words

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Battlefield by Jordan Sparks.

So, I am blogging once again... I have been told that apparently I am a blog-a-holic. I do not mind. I like writing. I think I need to keep in mind though that my frequency is rarely matched. I need to remember that I cannot get upset when someone doesn't blog as often as I do, because not too many people do.

But that was not the topic of this blog. Sky is fantastic, as you all know, but he is great with making me feel good. If I am having a rough day, which I have had a few of over the past couple of weeks, he knows just how to get me through it. If I am sad and missing him, he knows exactly what to say. It is like he can get into my mind and find exactly what I need to hear, because it is not all the same. He is amazing. Just plainly amazing.

I love him so much. I know right now these issues with my family are not the greatest thing, but I think in a weird way, it has made me feel closer to him. I know that he is in this, I have seen that a thousand times over. I am so lucky. I am done letting what anyone says bother me. I haven't let it bring me down, but I have let it hurt, and I am done. I know what I am doing is what is right for me. Everyone else can learn to deal.

:)

Soul

American Idol

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I'm currently listening to Apologize by Timbaland feat. OneRepublic

Okay everyone, for those of you who do not watching American Idol, this post will not interest you. Michael Johns was voted off tonight in probably the biggest mistake since Chris Daughtry getting voted off. I know the show is based off of viewer votes and usually I keep my mouth shut and don't really say anything about who gets voted off, even when it's people I like.

This was not talent based though. I'm sorry but you cannot tell me that Brook White or Syesha Mercado is as talented as Michael Johns. Brook White can probably get a record deal and do semi-decently but Syesha would flounder in the music business, nothing sets her apart. Michael Johns should not have left before these people. The votes that he didn't receive, in my opinion, can be attributed to his age, which pisses me off. I'm sorry for the language, I am trying to keep this good clean fun for all ages, but I'm very upset about this.

I can't write anymore, I'm too upset...

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Soul