Closer

Hey Everyone.

I am currently watching Lost.

I woke up this morning and looked around my room and realized that I would not be waking up to the cool blue walls for much longer. My room is no longer my room. I am in transit. I am not welcome. I am a guest in what used to be my home. I am moving in with Sky on Saturday. This isn't the way we wanted this to happen, but both of us are excited about it.

I am excited about getting there and cleaning. Cleaning calms me. I am excited to just be with Sky. It isn't a trip, it is together. I am scared and excited. More so excited though. We've talked about a lot of things. Mundane things that make me so excited.

I look around my house now and realize that it isn't my home anymore. It is sad. I'm not about to say that it has really set in yet, but it has a little bit. Strange...

:/

Soul

Sky's Words

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Battlefield by Jordan Sparks.

So, I am blogging once again... I have been told that apparently I am a blog-a-holic. I do not mind. I like writing. I think I need to keep in mind though that my frequency is rarely matched. I need to remember that I cannot get upset when someone doesn't blog as often as I do, because not too many people do.

But that was not the topic of this blog. Sky is fantastic, as you all know, but he is great with making me feel good. If I am having a rough day, which I have had a few of over the past couple of weeks, he knows just how to get me through it. If I am sad and missing him, he knows exactly what to say. It is like he can get into my mind and find exactly what I need to hear, because it is not all the same. He is amazing. Just plainly amazing.

I love him so much. I know right now these issues with my family are not the greatest thing, but I think in a weird way, it has made me feel closer to him. I know that he is in this, I have seen that a thousand times over. I am so lucky. I am done letting what anyone says bother me. I haven't let it bring me down, but I have let it hurt, and I am done. I know what I am doing is what is right for me. Everyone else can learn to deal.

:)

Soul

Tingly Toes

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Sweet Dreams by Beyonce.

I am going shopping tonight. With my mom. It is a specific night for us to talk and the such. I am going to get all dressed up and do my hair. I am excited about it. I like shopping. I have some things that I need to shop for. :D

:)

Soul

Blah Blah Balls

Hello Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Chasing Pavements by Adele.

Okay, so it's weird. I am twisted all up in pain. Physical pain, so don't go worrying about my mental state. Meh, it's all good though. Some meds will take care of it.

I had to pick my mom up early from work, which I didn't find out until twenty minutes before I had to leave. :( So now I'm sitting in a Starbucks (using WiFi) while she shops until we leave to go to a party. Mmmm, frapp.

Anyways. Sooooo, my life is good. I got Twin to join in on something with me. It is soooo exciting!!!!! Waaaaa!

I'm hopeful. Maybe, just maybe. I'm vague but I'm being vague for good reason.

<3

Soul

MY 100TH POST!!!

Hi Everyone!!!

I’m currently listening to New Favorite by Debra Arlyn and Every Mile a Memory by Dierks Bentley.

1. I’ve seen the Statue of Liberty.
2. Metrodad inspired me to blog.
3. I change my computer background often.
4. I constantly lose my flash drives.
5. If I could be any celebrity for a day it would be Victoria Beckham.
6. I like Britney Spears’ music.
7. I love thinking about my future, it excites me.
8. I hate the Times New Roman font.
9. I haven’t read the twilight series and really don’t plan on it.
10. I’ve never broken a bone.
11. Stone is the first boy who is really athletic that I have ever had a crush on.
12. I like it when my nails are painted but I rarely do it.
13. The Green Mile is my all time favorite movie.
14. When I am shopping with my little cousin I like to pretend he is my son to see people’s reactions.
15. My favorite candy is a tie between Almond Joys and Reese’s peanut butter cups.
16. The best number is 27.
17. Completely yellow socks creep me out.
18. I can’t drink plain coffee.
19. My favorite pair of shoes is my nike flip flops.
20. I honestly don’t think I could survive without my IPOD
21. One of my biggest accomplishments this year has been creating my own grades program.
22. My favorite color is midnight blue
23. I used to love Spongebob and my aunt doesn't understand that I don't anymore, so I still get Spongebob stuff at birthday/Xmas time.
24. I always want to live in the town I live in right now.
25. I am pretty much always cold.
26. I love budgeting.
27. I dislike onions.
28. I also dislike tomatoes.
29. Apparently I say “salsa” weirdly.
30. I have never been to a concert.
31. I don’t like caramel usually.
32. I love my mom’s sloppy joe’s and my grandma’s homemade tacos.
33. In my opinion, I swear too much. Although I do it a lot less than many people. However when I do swear, I do it properly.
34. I drink a lot of water. It’s quite a problem actually.
35. I know in my mind that sleep is just a waste of time because I could be doing so many other useful things but I love sleeping. I usually would rather be sleeping than doing what I’m doing.
36. My senior research paper will be the first research paper I write where I have actually read the book.
37. I am so scared of getting hurt.
38. I have such great creative fun ideas, but I never have the time to do them.
39. I have never been more inspired to teach than when I am around River.
40. I love doing PowerPoint presentations.
41. I love blankets. I am constantly using them. I even have one in my car…
42. I am always questioning myself and every little move I make.
43. I have such a great desire to teach it sometimes surprises me.
44. I am not counting down the days until I end high school but I am counting down the days until I never have to do physical education again.
45. I am so excited for my first home.
46. The only things I spend money on are gas and food.
47. I still miss my old personal trainer.
48. The song “Candy Shop” by 50 Cent reminds me of Flash.
49.I like wearing dresses, but I don't have too many of them. :(
50. I’m quite driven when it comes to going farther than what is expected of me.
51. Ginger is really nice and I hope that my students like me as much as I like him.
52. I am planning on doing a unit on blogging when I am a teacher.
53. I like driving.
54. I hate gas prices.
55. I only keep a small percentage of my paycheck, the part I don’t keep goes into a savings account.
56. I recently watched The Truman Show for the first time and LOVED it.
57. My favorite book of all time is 1984.
58. I love Rohl Dahl.
59. I think that everyone is good at lying about certain things.
60. I really dislike my job now that Cabbage and Flash are gone, but Twin keeps me hanging on.
61. I like feeling like I am needed.
62. I like to work alone rather than in groups even if it means more work for me because I know that I will put forth a good product to receive an A.
63. I have only had one enjoyable year of math and that was because of the amazing teacher.
64. I plan on coming back to my high school next year religiously to visit with Noodles and River.

65. I am so surprised with the amount of admiration I feel for River, usually it takes me much longer to like a teacher as much as I like him.
66. I really like the name Molly, but I don’t know anyone personally with this name.
67. I lied about being sick one day for work; it didn’t gnaw at my conscious at all.
68. I greatly dislike people who talked about themselves in the third person seriously.
69. I would really like to take a course on Greek Mythology, it is so interesting.
70. I know I need a haircut but I have no time to get one.
71. I visit postsecret.com religiously.
72. I didn’t read all of To Kill a Mockingbird
73. I really want to load the Sims game on my computer but for some reason I cannot get it to work.
74. I have over 15 gigs of music on my IPOD
75. I love grocery shopping
76. I used to write beautiful poetry, I don’t know why I don’t anymore.
77. My favorite cartoon as a child was the Magic School Bus.
78. Mediterranean is one person who I feel like I can relate to on such a different level than all my other friends.
79. I love horror films.
80. Sometimes I don’t brush my hair, I just throw it up in a ponytail.
81. I like to braid my hair.
82. Not too many girls my age can pull off pigtails, but I can.
83. I love photoshop.
84. I adore gum.
85. I love texting. I will wake up at any hour of the day if I get a text.
86. When doing projects where you need to fasten a piece of paper to a poster board I prefer to use tape over glue.
87. I always download the itunes free music on Tuesday, who turns down FREE music???
88. I want to ride an ostrich.
89. I’m a very open person. I think I have to be to write a blog…
90. I love ellipses (…)
91. I am on the computer at least for a hour every day, usually more though.
92. I love sxephil on youtube.
93. I have conversations with my cat.
94. I enjoy playing games.
95. I’m okay with spending the majority of my nights at home
96. I LOVE taking pictures but I rarely print them out.
97. I have a lot of really nice jewelry but I usually don’t wear any jewelry besides rings.
98. I don’t have the heart to tell my mom I have grown out of the Ripley’s Believe it or Not books.
99. I am usually peppy all day.
100. I have been in a New York cab, scary experience.

See Sir, I Saw Saw V!!!

Hello Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Hands by Jewel.

So, I love the Saw franchise. Cary Elwes attracted me to the film originally, I mean who can resist Cary Elwes? Mmmm, Cary Elwes... Anyways, back to Saw... It is great. I think the level of intelligence behind it surpasses films that are currently being made. I think it is a gentle love fest for me. I adore that kind of thing. Which may make you scared and go running for the hills if I like it when people are put in terrifying self-harming situations, but please, I am not saying it because I am a freak or anything.

If you think about the mastery behind each trap of Jigsaw's, it is brilliant. I have immense respect for that as a writer. I have dabbled in darker works of fiction, it is very hard to come up with something that actually works. The writers of Saw I-V are brilliant. Some of the films (*cough* Saw IV *cough*) had a misstep or two as films, but I could still sit down and watch them any day of the week.

Now, onto Saw V. I don't want to ruin it for any of you, so I will try not to. I was extremely disappointed in the first trap, I sat there, hoping that the victim might turn out to be another Amanda (who I LOVE because of her psychological depth). When the trap let me down, I thought, oh no, has Jigsaw failed? But, alas, not to give anything away, it was not a Jigsaw trap. Let's just say it was a copycat. The movie lead me down a beautifully twisted dark path of magic each minute it was on the screen. I loved the main trap. Not only that, but they revisited old traps in flashbacks. It was all amazing. I cannot rave on enough about it.

Ahhhh, now you ask, what about the future??? Yes, there will be a Saw VI. There is a show on Vh1 that debuted tonight (It's on my tivo, I haven't watched it yet tonight (but I will (I'll blog about later))) called Scream Queens. It is casted a female character in Saw VI. I am eagerly waiting for my mom to go to sleep so I can watch it.

I will be the first in line to buy my tickets for Saw XXXVII, without a doubt.

=)

Soul


PS- the theater I was at had a big cut out thing of Tobin Bell's face. So right now the background on my cell phone is me standing next to it. AHHH, greatness!

College bound...

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Love me Dead by Ludo. (Thanks to Twin for the recommendation)

So, obviously I have been thinking about college a lot lately. Why obviously? Well, because that is the age I am at. So, I have taken on the assumption that I will go to a midsized private university (approx. 8000 students). I love the campus and student body. I actually love the school. However, a new thought entered my head this summer.

I love my mom. I actually really adore her. You have all read about my dad. (Here and Here) That has made me become really close to my mom. So, this summer was a really hard time for me because I missed her a great deal. So I am looking into some quality four year universities that I can commute to. Just to look into it, you know? We'll see...

=)

Soul