Hello Everyone!
I'm currently listening to Chasing Pavements by Adele.
Okay, so it's weird. I am twisted all up in pain. Physical pain, so don't go worrying about my mental state. Meh, it's all good though. Some meds will take care of it.
I had to pick my mom up early from work, which I didn't find out until twenty minutes before I had to leave. :( So now I'm sitting in a Starbucks (using WiFi) while she shops until we leave to go to a party. Mmmm, frapp.
Anyways. Sooooo, my life is good. I got Twin to join in on something with me. It is soooo exciting!!!!! Waaaaa!
I'm hopeful. Maybe, just maybe. I'm vague but I'm being vague for good reason.
<3
Soul
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Couldn't I be something besides a moth?
Hi Everyone!
I'm currently listening to Just Dance by Lady GaGa.
So, I am a moth. He is the flame. I am attracted in a way that cannot be explained. In my mind I know I want to stay away, well not stay away, but I want it to be different. Why is my life so fucked? I don't want to sound like one of those angsty teenagers, because I don't think I am an angsty teenager.
I maintain this perfect distance, then he calls, and we talk, and he is so perfect about it. I think, perhaps this is exactly what I'm looking for and he is perfect for what I need. Then he turns into an asshole. Perhaps he doesn't turn into one though, perhaps he just is one and I don't realize it until I let myself see it.
But I don't want to stop. That's where the moth part of me comes in. I know that he will text me, come up with a beautiful lie of an excuse, and I will let myself believe. I won't stop myself either, because it's beautiful. I would worship it. I won't, but I would.
Not to mention, some of the things that he has said makes my heart melt. Not in the way where I'm about to proclaim my love or anything. He's real though, he's standing in front of me and smiling, perfect diamonds of words falling from lips and into my ears.
I'm sucker.
=/
Soul
I'm currently listening to Just Dance by Lady GaGa.
So, I am a moth. He is the flame. I am attracted in a way that cannot be explained. In my mind I know I want to stay away, well not stay away, but I want it to be different. Why is my life so fucked? I don't want to sound like one of those angsty teenagers, because I don't think I am an angsty teenager.
I maintain this perfect distance, then he calls, and we talk, and he is so perfect about it. I think, perhaps this is exactly what I'm looking for and he is perfect for what I need. Then he turns into an asshole. Perhaps he doesn't turn into one though, perhaps he just is one and I don't realize it until I let myself see it.
But I don't want to stop. That's where the moth part of me comes in. I know that he will text me, come up with a beautiful lie of an excuse, and I will let myself believe. I won't stop myself either, because it's beautiful. I would worship it. I won't, but I would.
Not to mention, some of the things that he has said makes my heart melt. Not in the way where I'm about to proclaim my love or anything. He's real though, he's standing in front of me and smiling, perfect diamonds of words falling from lips and into my ears.
I'm sucker.
=/
Soul
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Hmmmm, no countdown, but there are the thoughts
Hi Everyone.
I'm currently listening to Candy Shop by 50 Cent.
So, stuff has happened. I know Twin is not an advocate. However, I'm having bunches of fun. I know that more fun will soon be had. Which is what my title is about.
My thoughts have been wandering today. I can almost still feel it.
Blissful.
Weird, I know.
Platinum and Mediterranean seem to be for it. Platinum is very excited for me.
I bought something today. I almost feel weird about it. It makes me feel like a little kid because it'll be a completely new experience. I mean, not completely new, but I've never used one. Neither has he...
I've reverted. Not in the way any of you will think.
I like it.
=)
Soul
I'm currently listening to Candy Shop by 50 Cent.
So, stuff has happened. I know Twin is not an advocate. However, I'm having bunches of fun. I know that more fun will soon be had. Which is what my title is about.
My thoughts have been wandering today. I can almost still feel it.
Blissful.
Weird, I know.
Platinum and Mediterranean seem to be for it. Platinum is very excited for me.
I bought something today. I almost feel weird about it. It makes me feel like a little kid because it'll be a completely new experience. I mean, not completely new, but I've never used one. Neither has he...
I've reverted. Not in the way any of you will think.
I like it.
=)
Soul
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Thoughts
Hi Everyone!
I’m currently listening to The Sound of White by Missy Higgins.
River gave me this amazing publication today. It is a literary magazine that has some amazing pieces in it. One piece, actually the very first piece, made my heart stop. Its beauty was overwhelming. I have been reading it throughout my school day, becoming more and more enchanted with each word, with each syllable.
I like to sing. I listen to my IPOD frequently throughout the day at school. I find that I have this overwhelming desire to belt out certain songs sometimes. I think that music is powerful. It speaks to everyone. There is music for every mood, for every person. Sometimes I swear I can feel the music inside of me. I just like it that much.
Where any preconceived ideas were blown away… *me singing*
So, anyhow. I hate it when I come up with something so extremely brilliant and perfect, then fourteen minutes later when I go to write it down, I am completely blank. Oh sure, I have the general idea of what my plan was, of the words I found so perfect only minutes earlier. I can’t seem to string the words together right though. They come out jumbled and wrong. Just plain wrong. It’s quite annoying.
Today feels like a Friday. Which makes me sad, because I wish it was Friday. I got really sad when I realized it was not Friday, but Wednesday. Wednesday is good too though. Wednesday is good too.
:)
Soul
I’m currently listening to The Sound of White by Missy Higgins.
River gave me this amazing publication today. It is a literary magazine that has some amazing pieces in it. One piece, actually the very first piece, made my heart stop. Its beauty was overwhelming. I have been reading it throughout my school day, becoming more and more enchanted with each word, with each syllable.
I like to sing. I listen to my IPOD frequently throughout the day at school. I find that I have this overwhelming desire to belt out certain songs sometimes. I think that music is powerful. It speaks to everyone. There is music for every mood, for every person. Sometimes I swear I can feel the music inside of me. I just like it that much.
Where any preconceived ideas were blown away… *me singing*
So, anyhow. I hate it when I come up with something so extremely brilliant and perfect, then fourteen minutes later when I go to write it down, I am completely blank. Oh sure, I have the general idea of what my plan was, of the words I found so perfect only minutes earlier. I can’t seem to string the words together right though. They come out jumbled and wrong. Just plain wrong. It’s quite annoying.
Today feels like a Friday. Which makes me sad, because I wish it was Friday. I got really sad when I realized it was not Friday, but Wednesday. Wednesday is good too though. Wednesday is good too.
:)
Soul
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