Clean.

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Bad Romance by Lady Gaga.

I spent the holidays with Grandâme and Hattie, it was so nice. I was run down to empty, but I was spending holidays with family so that made me happy. I was literally run down to empty though. I didn't get a moments rest. Which was fine because I rarely see them so it is nice to run around and fit everything in.

Although it meant that I was also away from Sky for two weeks. Which meant that the house went without cleaning for two weeks. I came into the house happy, excited to see the dogs and rest a bit. I did not sleep at all due to my early flight this morning. I was looking forward to sleeping in my bed and getting some zzzzs before Sky got home. We talked yesterday and he made it seem like the house was decent. I knew that he wouldn't clean the toilets or anything like that, but I expected the house to be decent.

I walked in the house and was... disappointed. Not that it is filthy or anything, but it is definitely too dirty for me. I don't understand how crumbs are not cleaned up. Especially from areas that aren't supposed to have crumbs! I don't understand how hard it is to run the water after a shave to clean the sink. I just don't get how the mess doesn't get to him.

I was thinking about it though, and I didn't leave the house in pristine condition either though. There were things that needed to get done. There were things that could have been cleaner. I was definitely slacking on my household duties.

I still feel like crying though. I am so exhausted and I can't sleep. I need to clean. I already cleaned the sink, and I feel like that just sapped any energy I had. To even think about doing anything else makes me want to curl into a ball and start sobbing. Oh well, it needs to get done. Sleeping is for losers anyway...

:-/

Soul

Today.

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Picture by Kid Rock feat. Sheryl Crow.

So today was a bit of a headache so far. I woke up late-ish. Not a bad thing, but the dogs were barking as soon as they saw me to go outside. I felt awful that they needed to go and I didn't take them at the normal time. One of them was mad and even though we were outside for more than a half hour decided to save his messy treats for the floor in the dining room. How pleasant. I then spent over two hours talking a friend up from her emotionally low point because of her boyfriend.

I then called Sky to ask what I should have for lunch. He was busy and I felt like shit for bothering him. I then ate lunch and browsed around online for a job. No, browsing is the wrong word. I scoured the internet for a job, only to be faced once again with the dim realization that right now there is nothing.

Today is just not a good day for me. I want to curl up under the covers and go back to sleep. I want to cry. This is so not like me...

I love being here... being with Sky... but I miss what I left behind too. I know I am in the right place, but when you are being faced with bugs, no car, no job, and no school, sometimes the old things get glamorized. I know that I made the right decision. The place that I was at was not healthy for me. It was wearing on me and I couldn't do anything about it. Now I am loved and welcomed in my home. I knew that I would get homesick eventually, and I think the overly hormonal state I'm in right now doesn't help these feelings, but seriously, going back to bed looks really good right now.

Oh... and I love Sky. We live a very 1950s-esque household. Which I love. But I handle the housework. Dishes, cleaning, etc etc etc. Well, we have a tiny bug issue that has me literally scared to go into my kitchen. Sky did the dishes last night. At that moment I fell a little bit more in love with him. I am head over heels. I love him with all of my heart. He is the best man in the whole world.

:)

Soul

My New Life

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Everyone's At It by Lily Allen.

I moved yesterday. I am happy. I am in the process of cleaning. The bathroom right now specifically.

Now I am eating [a really really good PB&J sandwich. Mmmmm]. I still am in the middle of cleaning the bathroom though. Just took a dinner break. So far I've cleaned the floor and the toilet. I've still got this one section of floor to clean that was just too hard to reach the first go-around. That bit should only take about five minutes though. So I'm not worried about it. I want the bathroom all cleaned by the time I go to bed. It shouldn't be a problem the only things I have left to do in there is the shower and the sink/cabinet combo.

I think after that, depending on how much time I have, I might wash the dishes we bought yesterday. I just don't know if I'll be up for setting all of the bathroom things tonight. I might save that for a morning job. I might go through the box and separate things though. That wouldn't be too bad. Eh, who knows. We'll see how I feel after finishing cleaning.

I love Sky. He has done so much for me. He is the most amazing person ever. At a point where I was left with no options, he gave me one. I am happy with him. I love him, and I am in love with him.

I am now living with two dogs instead of my loving adorable cat. The dogs are cute. I am getting used to them. They are sleeping at my feet right now, so you can't knock their lovingness either... They listen well [for the most part] too.

:)

Soul