Something I wrote a while back and never posted

Hi everyone!

I’m currently listening to Mannequin by Katy Perry.

I’m so sorry, I haven’t been here in a while. Actually, it’s been quite a while. I have a couple of things to talk about. First, I want to talk about my brilliant friends. I am officially 18 (wooh, legal!). I had Platinum, Twin, Mediterranean, and Manhattan over for a little celebration. I hate to use the word birthday party because that has so many immature connotations in my mind. However, that’s pretty much what it was. Platinum, Twin, Mediterranean, and I went to a store and got a very interesting (and informative) lesson about some *cough cough* items. It was so much fun overall, and I know what I’m getting Twin for Xmas. Hehehehe, she probably thinks I’m kidding… *laughs manically*. The reason that Manhattan didn’t come with us is because she is not 18 yet, so it would have been a no go for her. But she said she would meet us for dinner. So I called her twice and texted her, but I get no answer. I am upset, but I push it aside because it was my night and I wasn’t going to let her ruin it. We went to dinner and had SUCH a great time. It was really fun and I couldn’t have asked for anything better. Well as soon as the bill comes for dinner she texts me and asks if I had gotten any of her texts. I just rolled my eyes, I didn’t, but honestly I don’t think she texted me. I was receiving all my other texts and sending them and THAT one asking if I had gotten her previous ‘texts’ magically got through. Sorry, I don’t believe it. Not to mention she knew the time schedule I was working on, when 5 o’clock rolled around she should have called if I hadn’t texted her. Blah, it’s all such bullshit. She said that she had a problem with stuff and couldn’t leave her house, like I said before though, I wasn’t going to let her ruin my night. So I didn’t. We went back to my house, played a game, opened presents, and had a great time. She ended up showing up but the dynamics of the group were weird with her there. I noticed it. After to talking to my friends separately they all expressed that they were upset with her because she treated me like shit and was very nonchalant about it. She didn’t seem very into the night either. To be honest I think I would have had a better time if she didn’t show up at all. BUT, I had an amazing time because I was with my best friends and that’s what matters. Mediterranean left first, then Manhattan, but Platinum stayed for a long time. It was really great because the dynamics between Platinum and Twin were really great. It was a great couple hours with just the three of us. I know that Twin and Mediterranean both read this so I just wanted you two to know that I love you both to death and know that you guys could have done anything with your night so I am really happy that you chose to spend it with me. I had an amazing time and you are the reason for it. *hugs* I love you both!

=)

Soul

Blushing Gives Everything Away

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Mannequin by Katy Perry.

So, I love Twin. I just want to put it out there. She is a great girl who I thank God everyday for. If it wasn't for her I would have quit my job such a long time ago. Beyond a simple coworker though she is one of my best friends. I look forward to talking to her because I know she truly listens to me and cares about me. We can truly talk about anything too. I have never told anyone about my nonfiction book-reading habits, and since she has similar habits it's all okay. Even if she didn't have similar habits I think it would be okay. I truly believe that anything I tell her wouldn't make her shirk away and stop being my friend.

So that's all...

=)

Soul

MY 100TH POST!!!

Hi Everyone!!!

I’m currently listening to New Favorite by Debra Arlyn and Every Mile a Memory by Dierks Bentley.

1. I’ve seen the Statue of Liberty.
2. Metrodad inspired me to blog.
3. I change my computer background often.
4. I constantly lose my flash drives.
5. If I could be any celebrity for a day it would be Victoria Beckham.
6. I like Britney Spears’ music.
7. I love thinking about my future, it excites me.
8. I hate the Times New Roman font.
9. I haven’t read the twilight series and really don’t plan on it.
10. I’ve never broken a bone.
11. Stone is the first boy who is really athletic that I have ever had a crush on.
12. I like it when my nails are painted but I rarely do it.
13. The Green Mile is my all time favorite movie.
14. When I am shopping with my little cousin I like to pretend he is my son to see people’s reactions.
15. My favorite candy is a tie between Almond Joys and Reese’s peanut butter cups.
16. The best number is 27.
17. Completely yellow socks creep me out.
18. I can’t drink plain coffee.
19. My favorite pair of shoes is my nike flip flops.
20. I honestly don’t think I could survive without my IPOD
21. One of my biggest accomplishments this year has been creating my own grades program.
22. My favorite color is midnight blue
23. I used to love Spongebob and my aunt doesn't understand that I don't anymore, so I still get Spongebob stuff at birthday/Xmas time.
24. I always want to live in the town I live in right now.
25. I am pretty much always cold.
26. I love budgeting.
27. I dislike onions.
28. I also dislike tomatoes.
29. Apparently I say “salsa” weirdly.
30. I have never been to a concert.
31. I don’t like caramel usually.
32. I love my mom’s sloppy joe’s and my grandma’s homemade tacos.
33. In my opinion, I swear too much. Although I do it a lot less than many people. However when I do swear, I do it properly.
34. I drink a lot of water. It’s quite a problem actually.
35. I know in my mind that sleep is just a waste of time because I could be doing so many other useful things but I love sleeping. I usually would rather be sleeping than doing what I’m doing.
36. My senior research paper will be the first research paper I write where I have actually read the book.
37. I am so scared of getting hurt.
38. I have such great creative fun ideas, but I never have the time to do them.
39. I have never been more inspired to teach than when I am around River.
40. I love doing PowerPoint presentations.
41. I love blankets. I am constantly using them. I even have one in my car…
42. I am always questioning myself and every little move I make.
43. I have such a great desire to teach it sometimes surprises me.
44. I am not counting down the days until I end high school but I am counting down the days until I never have to do physical education again.
45. I am so excited for my first home.
46. The only things I spend money on are gas and food.
47. I still miss my old personal trainer.
48. The song “Candy Shop” by 50 Cent reminds me of Flash.
49.I like wearing dresses, but I don't have too many of them. :(
50. I’m quite driven when it comes to going farther than what is expected of me.
51. Ginger is really nice and I hope that my students like me as much as I like him.
52. I am planning on doing a unit on blogging when I am a teacher.
53. I like driving.
54. I hate gas prices.
55. I only keep a small percentage of my paycheck, the part I don’t keep goes into a savings account.
56. I recently watched The Truman Show for the first time and LOVED it.
57. My favorite book of all time is 1984.
58. I love Rohl Dahl.
59. I think that everyone is good at lying about certain things.
60. I really dislike my job now that Cabbage and Flash are gone, but Twin keeps me hanging on.
61. I like feeling like I am needed.
62. I like to work alone rather than in groups even if it means more work for me because I know that I will put forth a good product to receive an A.
63. I have only had one enjoyable year of math and that was because of the amazing teacher.
64. I plan on coming back to my high school next year religiously to visit with Noodles and River.

65. I am so surprised with the amount of admiration I feel for River, usually it takes me much longer to like a teacher as much as I like him.
66. I really like the name Molly, but I don’t know anyone personally with this name.
67. I lied about being sick one day for work; it didn’t gnaw at my conscious at all.
68. I greatly dislike people who talked about themselves in the third person seriously.
69. I would really like to take a course on Greek Mythology, it is so interesting.
70. I know I need a haircut but I have no time to get one.
71. I visit postsecret.com religiously.
72. I didn’t read all of To Kill a Mockingbird
73. I really want to load the Sims game on my computer but for some reason I cannot get it to work.
74. I have over 15 gigs of music on my IPOD
75. I love grocery shopping
76. I used to write beautiful poetry, I don’t know why I don’t anymore.
77. My favorite cartoon as a child was the Magic School Bus.
78. Mediterranean is one person who I feel like I can relate to on such a different level than all my other friends.
79. I love horror films.
80. Sometimes I don’t brush my hair, I just throw it up in a ponytail.
81. I like to braid my hair.
82. Not too many girls my age can pull off pigtails, but I can.
83. I love photoshop.
84. I adore gum.
85. I love texting. I will wake up at any hour of the day if I get a text.
86. When doing projects where you need to fasten a piece of paper to a poster board I prefer to use tape over glue.
87. I always download the itunes free music on Tuesday, who turns down FREE music???
88. I want to ride an ostrich.
89. I’m a very open person. I think I have to be to write a blog…
90. I love ellipses (…)
91. I am on the computer at least for a hour every day, usually more though.
92. I love sxephil on youtube.
93. I have conversations with my cat.
94. I enjoy playing games.
95. I’m okay with spending the majority of my nights at home
96. I LOVE taking pictures but I rarely print them out.
97. I have a lot of really nice jewelry but I usually don’t wear any jewelry besides rings.
98. I don’t have the heart to tell my mom I have grown out of the Ripley’s Believe it or Not books.
99. I am usually peppy all day.
100. I have been in a New York cab, scary experience.

Drainage

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Where I Stood by Missy Higgins.

So, I'm excited because by posting this right now means I am posting my 100th post tomorrow. Ahhhh, how exciting! I am extremely tired right now. I had an extremely draining day. I am going to write a nine page paper now. How fun...

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Soul

Zippee

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Take Me Away by Avril Lavigne.

So, I am super excited for my 100th post, and you should be too!!! I will hopefully be posting it tomorrow. I am not done with it yet, but I have been working hard on it. You will 100% for sure learn something new about me from it.

So today was a weird day. The day seemed to go on forever and a lot of teachers gave us busy work. I felt like the day was never going to end. Although I have been feeling like that for some time now. I think it has to do with the fact that I have made my college decision and I've been accepted and I'm not too worried about anything anymore.

I also feel like my life is getting boring. I feel like I am always doing the same thing and I am just sort of sick of it. I texted a bunch of my friends and a couple of them said good things. I got a lot of "i don't know" and "no clue". I could always read more nonfiction books. =D right twin??? On a serious note though, I really want to kick start my life. So, any ideas of what I can do to make my life a bit more interesting???

=)

Soul

Under Waterfalls

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Hot N Cold by Katy Perry.

I have a million and a half things to do today, so instead of doing them, I am blogging. I feel like I need to blog though. I was hoping that Flash could come over today, and he couldn't. I caught glimpse of myself in the mirror after I found out this news and was surprised by what I saw. I saw a pretty girl, a girl who deserves a good guy. I'm not saying that I am not going to see Flash again, but I am officially not as obsessed with the whole situation as I was before.

I realized today, that I deserve someone who likes me. What Flash and I had (have???) is a friendship, nothing more. I think I forgot about that. I think I let the other stuff get to my head. I am going to start putting myself out there more. I think I shelter myself up inside of me, protecting myself from not getting hurt. It's funny, because I told Twin about a month ago to just ask this one guy out. I said "What's the worse that could happen?". I am going to take my own advice, because you know what? The worse that could happen is that I get hurt.

I think I am ready for the pain. It's funny because I think that if Flash came over today, I would have never realized this. So in a funny way, I own this all to Flash.

=)

Soul

Secrets.

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Jolene by Dolly Parton.

So, quick post because I have to leave in ten minutes... I have been texting my secrets to people via postsecret's myspace blog. Sadly, I don't have a myspace so I cannot receive secrets, but I am sending them. My secrets are not very dark, but they are very personal... It is a nice thing to share them with someone who has never met me or never will.

=)

Soul

Venus in Pudding

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to SexyBack by Justin Timberlake.

So... I am like a teeter totter with Flash. Right now I'm up in the air. I feel like that is a pretty good analogy for what is going on inside my head. Last night was so... great. I feel like it is back to how it was before, and after. =) I feel so satisfied with how it is right now. I feel hopeful. However, I know that EVERY friggin' time I've felt hopeful before I have lost, so perhaps maybe the hint is not to get hopeful. I can't not be hopeful though. Hate me if you may, I am continuing on...

=)

Soul