I'm Stealing a Cat.

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Ghost of Me by Chris Daughtry.

There is this little kitty that lives under my house. It has to be really young looking at the size of it. I am luring it into my loving home. It will work. Almost got it three nights ago. I plan on catching it this week. I will keep you updated. I named it Skittles.

;)

Soul

Jobless.

Hey Everyone.

I'm currently listening to Cowboy Casanova by Carrie Underwood.

So I've been jobless for a few months now. It is very frustrating. I got a 'lead' [?] on a local movie rental place, and was told to call back after the holidays. I took that to mean January 1st. Apparently it meant December 25th, because I called today and guess what? They are training the people they hired. >.< It makes me want to cry. I had really high hopes since they were at a desperate need for people. Apparently at such a need they hired people in the 6 days between my 'holiday' discrepancy.

It really supremely sucks major ass because I am not bringing any money into the house. It makes me feel awful every time that I need something or want something. Stuff that is needed, like shampoo, I feel awful about buying.

I know that I contribute to the house in my own way, cleaning, taking care of the dogs, taking care of the house, doing anything that Sky needs me to, but it is FRUSTRATING. I am capable of working. I want to work! I know that in this economy I am not the only one looking. But really, I would take anything. Part-time? Sure! I just would like to bring some moo-la home for the house...

:/

Soul

Clean.

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I'm currently listening to Bad Romance by Lady Gaga.

I spent the holidays with Grandâme and Hattie, it was so nice. I was run down to empty, but I was spending holidays with family so that made me happy. I was literally run down to empty though. I didn't get a moments rest. Which was fine because I rarely see them so it is nice to run around and fit everything in.

Although it meant that I was also away from Sky for two weeks. Which meant that the house went without cleaning for two weeks. I came into the house happy, excited to see the dogs and rest a bit. I did not sleep at all due to my early flight this morning. I was looking forward to sleeping in my bed and getting some zzzzs before Sky got home. We talked yesterday and he made it seem like the house was decent. I knew that he wouldn't clean the toilets or anything like that, but I expected the house to be decent.

I walked in the house and was... disappointed. Not that it is filthy or anything, but it is definitely too dirty for me. I don't understand how crumbs are not cleaned up. Especially from areas that aren't supposed to have crumbs! I don't understand how hard it is to run the water after a shave to clean the sink. I just don't get how the mess doesn't get to him.

I was thinking about it though, and I didn't leave the house in pristine condition either though. There were things that needed to get done. There were things that could have been cleaner. I was definitely slacking on my household duties.

I still feel like crying though. I am so exhausted and I can't sleep. I need to clean. I already cleaned the sink, and I feel like that just sapped any energy I had. To even think about doing anything else makes me want to curl into a ball and start sobbing. Oh well, it needs to get done. Sleeping is for losers anyway...

:-/

Soul

Holidays

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Last Christmas by Wham!

It's been a while since I've blogged here.

I'm sort of Grrrr...

Having a fabulous time with family, but Sky and I are apart.

It is Grrrrrr-worthy.

I miss him.

It frustrates me.

:/

Soul

Fabulous.

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently watching RW/RR Challenge: The Ruins.

So Sky was on a business trip for the past couple of days. That's all fine and dandy. So this morning I woke up with him early and was putzing around with him. He looked over at me and said that he bought something for me. I was genuinely surprised, my heart filled with excitment. He pulled out this little box with the Liberty Bell on it. My heart felt like love was overfilling it. I opened the box to find a small bell. Sky knows that I collect bells from a small conversation we had once. Nothing could have been better. I have the most amazing boyfriend ever.

<3

Soul

Hot.

Sometimes I take showers that burn my skin. My skin turns this deep red. It looks like my whole body is blushing. I take these showers once a week... sometimes twice. I have learned that I shouldn't take these showers two days in a row. They make me feel lightheaded. I wasn't thinking and took two, one last night and one today. Less than 24 hours in between. I feel lightheaded.

I like the sensation. I like the slight burn. The thought that goes screaming through my head to either get out of the scalding water or to turn it down. I fight this urge and take the burn. I usually do this when I need to think. When something stressful is going on as well...

I feel so lightheaded. I feel sick.

I don't know what to do...

I was bad...

But so was he.

Today.

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Picture by Kid Rock feat. Sheryl Crow.

So today was a bit of a headache so far. I woke up late-ish. Not a bad thing, but the dogs were barking as soon as they saw me to go outside. I felt awful that they needed to go and I didn't take them at the normal time. One of them was mad and even though we were outside for more than a half hour decided to save his messy treats for the floor in the dining room. How pleasant. I then spent over two hours talking a friend up from her emotionally low point because of her boyfriend.

I then called Sky to ask what I should have for lunch. He was busy and I felt like shit for bothering him. I then ate lunch and browsed around online for a job. No, browsing is the wrong word. I scoured the internet for a job, only to be faced once again with the dim realization that right now there is nothing.

Today is just not a good day for me. I want to curl up under the covers and go back to sleep. I want to cry. This is so not like me...

I love being here... being with Sky... but I miss what I left behind too. I know I am in the right place, but when you are being faced with bugs, no car, no job, and no school, sometimes the old things get glamorized. I know that I made the right decision. The place that I was at was not healthy for me. It was wearing on me and I couldn't do anything about it. Now I am loved and welcomed in my home. I knew that I would get homesick eventually, and I think the overly hormonal state I'm in right now doesn't help these feelings, but seriously, going back to bed looks really good right now.

Oh... and I love Sky. We live a very 1950s-esque household. Which I love. But I handle the housework. Dishes, cleaning, etc etc etc. Well, we have a tiny bug issue that has me literally scared to go into my kitchen. Sky did the dishes last night. At that moment I fell a little bit more in love with him. I am head over heels. I love him with all of my heart. He is the best man in the whole world.

:)

Soul