Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Procrastination at its finest

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Be my Lover by La Bouche.

The last thing I should be doing right now is blogging. I need to be cleaning, and packing. Oh damn, I still need to empty the dishwasher too... *sighs* today has been busy to say the least. Some life changing decisions were made, and now I need to be preparing. Which I am soooo excited about. I don't really want to talk about it now though. I don't want to jinx anything. Not that it would jinx anything, but I just don't think I am going to blog about it until next week. You'll find out Until then, sit on your pins.

:)

Soul

Monday, July 27, 2009

Project Recipe

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift.

I have this project that I am working on, a cookbook. One with recipes that I have collected from cookbooks that I own and various websites. I have thought about doing it for a while, but I finally had a reason to do it. I know it might sound completely silly, but I like thinking, I could cook this for Sky. *blushes* I just love him. Making him dinner is HIGH on my list of things that I want to do. I love cooking/baking anyway but doing it FOR SKY is what makes me smile. I have dabbled here and there with cooking from scratch, usually that happens when I'm with Hattie and Grandâme. I like the thought of doing it more often.

Anyway, I have started writing recipes that I know I would like to try. I know I am going to make dinner one night this week for my Mom. I have only gone through one of my own cookbooks so far and then websites, so my agenda for today and this week is to get through the rest of the cookbooks that I own.

:)

Soul

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Slips of Time.

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I'm currently listening to Fine by Debra Arlyn.

When I was in my first and second year of high school writing notes was the coolest thing to do. You would spend whole class periods writing about the mundane things to pass along to your "BEST FRIEND" during passing period. I remember coming home some days and having the bottom of my backpack littered with the neatly folded pieces of notebook paper. I always deposited them in this decorative pink box. Once the note exchanges dwindled, the box got forgotten. It was put in a remote corner of my closet and never looked at.

Well, today I was going through my closet and finding all sorts of things I didn't remember I had. [Such as I have SOOOO much freakin' jewelry!] Then the pink box was found. I smiled at the memory of all the classes I wasted writing about how cold I was in class, or how much I wanted to fall asleep but absolutely refused [saved falling asleep in class until senior year. Classy.]. I opened the top of the box and was actually a little surprised at how full it was. However considering how often I was writing and exchanging notes, I guess I shouldn't have been. I remember actually fretting over that Mail wasn't going to be able to get her note until 4th period and Manhattan wouldn't get hers until 6th period. Oh the horror! Still, as much as it amuses me now to think back on it, it was fun. As silly as telling people about what I ate for dinner seems now, at least we talked. Now our communications are saved for 160 character text messages.

I'm not saying I'm going to start writing notes again, but I understand why it was so fun back then. I have the box on my bed and I am going to read through some of them now. There are a lot, so I don't know how much I will be able to get through, but I think a walk down memory lane will be fun.

:)

Soul

Friday, July 24, 2009

Singing

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I'm currently listening to More Like Ker by Miranda Lambert.

I love singing. I am horrible at it, but I love it. I cannot help myself. Give me some cheesy 70s song and I am set! Heartbeat... it's a lovebeat... I can sing some songs pretty well He's a little shy so she gave him a smile... But overall, it is just for fun. I think that everyone needs those kinds of things.

I know that I have mentioned before that I love music, but singing is such a part of that. It is great, because even if I'm singing a song that I sooooo should not be singing Mamaaaa... Didn't mean to make you cry.... I can still be happy with myself. I love that I can be myself. I am really not self conscious. I have even sang in the hallways of my high school in the past. It's not because I have the greatest voice [not obnoxiously, just did it for my own enjoyment...] but it is because I like singing.

Like I touched on before, I think everyone should have something that equates to my singing. Something that you are not fabulous at. Something that makes you happy. Something that you are comfortable in your own skin doing. When you have all three of those things wrapped together, I think you can honestly say you are comfortable in your own skin. When you can showcase a weakness and be comfortable with other people seeing it, but still be happy with it, that is amazing.

:)


Soul

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Sky is good for me!

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently watching a baby monitor still.

So, I just read Sky's new blog post and I have been thinking lately on how much he has influenced me. I have grown up in a very materialistic town where people feel very entitled to the nicest things. I am not materialistic and it annoys me to no end that people who surround me are. I have stopped being friends with people based on it. I don't care if you just bought a new coach purse and have eighteen Chanel dresses. I don't really see the purpose it buying something for 10x the amount just because it has a designer stamp on it. I am not saying that you can't buy designer things, I have Coach purses, I have a Gucci scarf, I have other purses as well. [I've never actually bought any of it for myself though] I have gotten them as gifts. I'm not saying I wouldn't buy it for myself, just haven't yet. Having a couple of staple items, is great! I feel like I have gotten off topic though.

Even though the materialism bug hasn't bitten me, I am not completely perfect. Sky has some ideas about helping the economy HERE that I agree with. Once I hear him say them, it makes so much sense. I have always preferred to buy American products, but with the down turn in the economy, it is so much easier to run to the bargain store and buy a product made in China for a cheaper price. However, if we support American made products, it is better for the American economy. Makes sense. I have started to implement this in my life. I made a conscious decision yesterday to make sure I bought an American product. It is easy. Reading some labels, maybe forking over a couple extra bucks, but if it means an upturn in the economy, it's worth it... at least to me. So yeah, I feel like this might have been a little all over the place, but that's it.

:)

Soul

Missin' Soul

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently watching a baby monitor.

So, it's Thursday and Sky has been gone since Sunday. It's been hard on me. I'm not going to lie. I miss him. It is much harder this time around. Which is understandable. This time we did so much more than last time. We had much more together time that was not about sex. Which makes a person fall more in love... Well, at least it makes me fall more in love... I've gotten through the days better now. Monday was a hard day, but now I can get through the days without tearing up. The nights are hard though.

My bed seems empty. My arms seem misplaced. The tears come then. I have this baby beenie baby that I got when I was with Sky, and I sleep with it in my hand every night. It helps a little. It is not the same as being able to curl up next to him and feel his flesh next to mine. I got spoiled. I know this. I don't mind. I just want it back.

Last night, Sky and I were talking on the phone and I was in bed. I closed my eyes, pretending he was next to me. It worked for a moment. I could almost smell him [although that might have been the aroma from one of the shirts I have of his]. Then the moment came back to me. I realized he was hundreds of miles away. I broke down a bit. But he knows just the way to make me feel better. I was done crying within two minutes because he had calmed me.

So, I am going a little crazy about this crying thing. I hate crying. I used to never cry at anything in real life. Oh sure, give me a good sappy movie, and the tears will come, but never at real life things. However, now I cry so fricken much. I don't like it. However, I don't know how to stop. I used to NEVER be like this. I know it is about the distance. The tears come when I think about how is not here, or how long it'll be until I see him again. *shrugs* So I know that once we are together, all this stupid crying will finally stop. Thank goodness...

:)

Soul

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Here Kitty... kitty? KITTY!!!!

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I'm currently listening to Hurt by Johnny Cash.

Sky has a webcam at work, that he apparently forgot to turn off. I logged onto yahoo and saw that he was logged on, then saw the "view my webcam" and got really excited. I clicked it and HE POPPED UP! He was on screen and I got soooo excited. But nope, it is just a frozen image. Bummer right? Oh well. He had on this really nice red shirt today. I don't know why I liked it so much... I just did. It looked really red... Gosh, I sound like an idiot when I say that, but it's true! He's just sexy. He'd look good in some shoelaces and nothing else... But then again, I am completely bias, but it is a bias I love.

Alright, well I wanted to blog about what I did tonight, but I don't have time because I am about to collapse from exhaustion. That'll be tomorrow's topic.

:)

Soul

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Shopping Exhaustion

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I'm currently listening to Breathe by Faith Hill.

I am soooo tired. My sleep schedule has been so off kilter the past couple of days. I went shopping tonight and feel like a ton of bricks hit me. It was exhausting. I don't know why, it just was. I got a really nice Summer robe though. I also got some new workout pants, they are super comfy. My biggest problem with workout pants is that I want to wear them ALL the time because of the level of comfort. Besides that I got a bunch of odds and ends. I got toothpaste, mouthwash, a card, among other things.

So, I am really tired and I'm going to go to bed. I just really wanted to blog a little. I was going to blog about something specific on my other blog, but I am just not coherent enough to write it. So perhaps tomorrow, perhaps not. We will see...

:)

Soul

Journey

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I'm currently listening to Paparazzi by Lady Gaga.

So I blogged like no one's business last night. Not here (obviously), but on my new blog. I love it. I feel like my blogs there have subjects. I like it. But I wanted to prove to all you Soul-ites that I am not abandoning this blog. I know some of my friends are following me here and I am not up and leaving this blog. Look how long I've been here! It's been quite a journey here. I started as a wee little junior in high school. Crazy to think that now.

SIX DAYS TO VACATION!!!!!!!!!! I don't know how this blog is going to hold up in the time I'm gone. Maybe post a couple of times, but maybe not. It's all up in the air. I don't think that blogging will be on my mind too much though ;) .

That's all I guess.

:)

Soul

Monday, July 6, 2009

New blog

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Untouched by The Veronicas.

I have a new blog. It is called Soul's Inner Life. It is about my sex life. There is a lot in there that a lot of people will not understand/accept. I am fine with that. I just ask that if you are not ok with it, then leave it. Stick with this blog. Now that I have that output, I won't be so conflicted here. :) So it really is for the best. If you do read it, please start with the first blog post. Thank you.

:)

Soul

Rhapsody Confusion

Hey Everyone!

I’m currently listening to Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen.

Alright, so I am trying out this whole “Windows Live Writer”.  We will see if I like it…

I have been thinking about something recently.  It is a thought that goes and comes, not like it is an everyday thought…  I still stop myself from writing certain things here.  I mean, TWIN reads this!  Not that I care, because I would tell her these things anyway, but I guess writing it where I know people can read it… it's just different.  *shrugs* I don’t know.  So, all that you get to know is that I am thinking about something more and more lately.

:)

Soul

Pride and Joy

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I'm currently listening to Pride and Joy by Stevie Ray Vaughan.

I am so excited for next Monday. I am going on vacation. I have most of the clothes that I am bringing, but there are of course some "maybe" clothes. The hardest thing is deciding what to wear on Monday. I really want to wear jeans because I bought these amazingly hot shoes that really only go with jeans/blue things. But then again, I really wanted to wear this one white dress on Monday. *sighs* oh the choices... It's not that big of a deal, but I just like thinking about Monday.

To be honest, I daydream about it. But for once, I don't feel bad about admitting that. It was a huge faux pas to admit to one of my exes that I was thinking about him when we weren't together. It was a "waste" and "time consuming" and a multitude of other things. He would yell at me whenever I would say I was thinking about him. That's one thing I adore about Sky, it is okay to think about him. Hell, it better be, I'm done with all the bullshit. I am so lucky that we found each other. He truly is what I want. I know it sounds extremely cliche, but he is what I have been looking for. Well, I guess that is not completely true. I wasn't looking. I was fine with what I was doing. But being with him, it's just right. I know in my heart, that something feels right about this. Writing this, is sooooo hard for me. Talking about my feelings for him... in a place where he can read it... I have been taught [in previous relationships] not to share how I feel. Don't say if you like something, it doesn't matter what I like or how I feel, that is how I was "trained" to think. Every time I open up or say something personal, I feel like I am doing something wrong still.

Well, as much as I would love to stay and relay all my past, I've got to get to work.

:)

Soul

Sunday, July 5, 2009

Overworked

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Nicest Thing by Kate Nash.

The song that I am listening to [also singing...] is brilliant. It has brought me to tears on multiple occasions. In fact, once I was singing it and balling my eyes out. It would have been mighty embarrassing if anyone else was around to see it. Anyway, I wanted to link the lyrics because they are so hauntingly beautiful. They are so sad.

My mind has been working overtime lately. It is Summer, I should be taking a well deserved break! But then again, I took a year long break called senior year so maybe this is just payback. Although what I am thinking about has nothing to do with equations or colloquial language. College plans have changed majorly for me in the past three weeks. MAJORLY. I hate it, but I will deal. Part of me wonders if it all happened for a reason. After all, everything happens for a reason...

*sighs*

I want a new laptop. I need a new laptop. I have this one, but the memory is crap, I can't store anything on here. Well... certain things are stored... *cough* Mark... *cough* Derrick...

As soon as I get back from vacation I am going to start my recipe project. I am soooooo excited about it!!! Seriously, I am more excited about this than most of the other projects I have done in the past.

Well, end of rambling...

:)

Soul

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Brrrrrrrkink

Hey Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Halo by Beyonce.

First things first, I am freezing my tits off right now. I'm at the library and it is cold! I wish I was wearing pants, heavy winter pants. Who says that in the middle of summer? INSANE people that's who! Or people at the library. I'm in the second grouping.

Now onto the reason why I am blogging today. I miss Sky. I was reading a blog that is written by a couple who is into some kinky things like we are, and the amount of love that they have is just so evident. I like that. It might sounds silly, but I think love is more abound [tehehehe] in the kink relationships. They seem to be more open and honest with each other. They also seem to be deeper bonds. At least that is how I see it.

Yep, that's what I think. Blogging more later.

<3

Soul