Get your booty into gear!

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Poker Face by Lady GaGa.

Alrighty, once again, it's been awhile. That's what my title is about, getting my butt into gear and keeping this up. School has been school though, not too much interesting going on there. Busy but boring.

What is really interesting is this new guy... Hmmm what to name him... SILVER!!! Okay, so Silver and I met a couple years ago. We lost touch for a while, but we are back in contact. Talking to him, it feels like I've known him my whole life. I'm glad we started talking again. He's a really chill guy who is just plainly amazing. We have so much in common and really click. He's a good friend to have reconnected with.

I think that's it. Oh, Twin and I are having a blast together. We have been hanging out a lot recently. She is AMAZING!!!! Woo!!!

<3

Soul

Je regrette

Hi Everyone!

I’m currently watching The Dark Knight.

Okay, it’s been a while. Wow, a long while since I’ve actually talked. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately. About life, about love, about friends. This thinking hasn’t been done alone either, I’ve talked about it with other people too. I talked about it with Cabbage, who I love. He is such a great guy. I miss him a lot. He makes me laugh all the time, but we can still hold actual conversations too. I’ve talked a bit about it with Mediterranean too. I would have talked about it with Twin, but she has been in a different state and those kinds of conversations are best left to be had in person.

So, you may ask yourself what I have come up with. What exactly are my thoughts of love and life? Well, who knows all the details, not me. I don’t pretend to. However, I think I have hammered down some of the more major points though. I think that dating is almost silly unless you think that the other person could be your life partner. I mean, that’s all dating really is, trial runs until you figure out if the person is the person you want to spend the rest of your life with. All other “dates” are silly. Now, I’m an advocate of silly, but don’t label it as dating if it won’t develop into something serious. Label it as what it is, friends with benefits. Now now now, don’t go jumping down my throat, I know you can’t tell as soon as you start dating someone whether or not they are that special person, but once you do know, what do you do then?

That’s what I’ve been thinking about the past couple of days.

=/

Soul

Blah Blah Balls

Hello Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Chasing Pavements by Adele.

Okay, so it's weird. I am twisted all up in pain. Physical pain, so don't go worrying about my mental state. Meh, it's all good though. Some meds will take care of it.

I had to pick my mom up early from work, which I didn't find out until twenty minutes before I had to leave. :( So now I'm sitting in a Starbucks (using WiFi) while she shops until we leave to go to a party. Mmmm, frapp.

Anyways. Sooooo, my life is good. I got Twin to join in on something with me. It is soooo exciting!!!!! Waaaaa!

I'm hopeful. Maybe, just maybe. I'm vague but I'm being vague for good reason.

<3

Soul

Couldn't I be something besides a moth?

Hi Everyone!

I'm currently listening to Just Dance by Lady GaGa.

So, I am a moth. He is the flame. I am attracted in a way that cannot be explained. In my mind I know I want to stay away, well not stay away, but I want it to be different. Why is my life so fucked? I don't want to sound like one of those angsty teenagers, because I don't think I am an angsty teenager.

I maintain this perfect distance, then he calls, and we talk, and he is so perfect about it. I think, perhaps this is exactly what I'm looking for and he is perfect for what I need. Then he turns into an asshole. Perhaps he doesn't turn into one though, perhaps he just is one and I don't realize it until I let myself see it.

But I don't want to stop. That's where the moth part of me comes in. I know that he will text me, come up with a beautiful lie of an excuse, and I will let myself believe. I won't stop myself either, because it's beautiful. I would worship it. I won't, but I would.

Not to mention, some of the things that he has said makes my heart melt. Not in the way where I'm about to proclaim my love or anything. He's real though, he's standing in front of me and smiling, perfect diamonds of words falling from lips and into my ears.

I'm sucker.

=/

Soul

Hmmmm, no countdown, but there are the thoughts

Hi Everyone.

I'm currently listening to Candy Shop by 50 Cent.

So, stuff has happened. I know Twin is not an advocate. However, I'm having bunches of fun. I know that more fun will soon be had. Which is what my title is about.

My thoughts have been wandering today. I can almost still feel it.

Blissful.

Weird, I know.

Platinum and Mediterranean seem to be for it. Platinum is very excited for me.

I bought something today. I almost feel weird about it. It makes me feel like a little kid because it'll be a completely new experience. I mean, not completely new, but I've never used one. Neither has he...

I've reverted. Not in the way any of you will think.

I like it.

=)

Soul

Thoughts

Hi Everyone!

I’m currently listening to The Sound of White by Missy Higgins.

River gave me this amazing publication today. It is a literary magazine that has some amazing pieces in it. One piece, actually the very first piece, made my heart stop. Its beauty was overwhelming. I have been reading it throughout my school day, becoming more and more enchanted with each word, with each syllable.

I like to sing. I listen to my IPOD frequently throughout the day at school. I find that I have this overwhelming desire to belt out certain songs sometimes. I think that music is powerful. It speaks to everyone. There is music for every mood, for every person. Sometimes I swear I can feel the music inside of me. I just like it that much.

Where any preconceived ideas were blown away… *me singing*

So, anyhow. I hate it when I come up with something so extremely brilliant and perfect, then fourteen minutes later when I go to write it down, I am completely blank. Oh sure, I have the general idea of what my plan was, of the words I found so perfect only minutes earlier. I can’t seem to string the words together right though. They come out jumbled and wrong. Just plain wrong. It’s quite annoying.

Today feels like a Friday. Which makes me sad, because I wish it was Friday. I got really sad when I realized it was not Friday, but Wednesday. Wednesday is good too though. Wednesday is good too.

:)

Soul

Something I wrote a while back and never posted

Hi everyone!

I’m currently listening to Mannequin by Katy Perry.

I’m so sorry, I haven’t been here in a while. Actually, it’s been quite a while. I have a couple of things to talk about. First, I want to talk about my brilliant friends. I am officially 18 (wooh, legal!). I had Platinum, Twin, Mediterranean, and Manhattan over for a little celebration. I hate to use the word birthday party because that has so many immature connotations in my mind. However, that’s pretty much what it was. Platinum, Twin, Mediterranean, and I went to a store and got a very interesting (and informative) lesson about some *cough cough* items. It was so much fun overall, and I know what I’m getting Twin for Xmas. Hehehehe, she probably thinks I’m kidding… *laughs manically*. The reason that Manhattan didn’t come with us is because she is not 18 yet, so it would have been a no go for her. But she said she would meet us for dinner. So I called her twice and texted her, but I get no answer. I am upset, but I push it aside because it was my night and I wasn’t going to let her ruin it. We went to dinner and had SUCH a great time. It was really fun and I couldn’t have asked for anything better. Well as soon as the bill comes for dinner she texts me and asks if I had gotten any of her texts. I just rolled my eyes, I didn’t, but honestly I don’t think she texted me. I was receiving all my other texts and sending them and THAT one asking if I had gotten her previous ‘texts’ magically got through. Sorry, I don’t believe it. Not to mention she knew the time schedule I was working on, when 5 o’clock rolled around she should have called if I hadn’t texted her. Blah, it’s all such bullshit. She said that she had a problem with stuff and couldn’t leave her house, like I said before though, I wasn’t going to let her ruin my night. So I didn’t. We went back to my house, played a game, opened presents, and had a great time. She ended up showing up but the dynamics of the group were weird with her there. I noticed it. After to talking to my friends separately they all expressed that they were upset with her because she treated me like shit and was very nonchalant about it. She didn’t seem very into the night either. To be honest I think I would have had a better time if she didn’t show up at all. BUT, I had an amazing time because I was with my best friends and that’s what matters. Mediterranean left first, then Manhattan, but Platinum stayed for a long time. It was really great because the dynamics between Platinum and Twin were really great. It was a great couple hours with just the three of us. I know that Twin and Mediterranean both read this so I just wanted you two to know that I love you both to death and know that you guys could have done anything with your night so I am really happy that you chose to spend it with me. I had an amazing time and you are the reason for it. *hugs* I love you both!

=)

Soul